I’m obsessed EDIT

I can’t get over this thing I have about time passing by, getting older, remembering lost loved ones. I’m obsessed, folks!

I had a strange dream earlier in which my 6-year-old nephew Alex was a 3-month-old baby again. It was strange, but I was exactly the same as I was when he really WAS that young….way overprotective of him. I’ve always been that way with him and JuJu. After all, as I tell my sister, her children are my children once removed!

I have been having more and more dreams about Daddy lately, and I don’t know what the hell to make of this. Why is he haunting my dreams? I mean, he’s a good guy in the dreams, but he seems to be in almost every dream lately.

I’ve been worried about our financial situation a lot. I’ve chosen not to worry as much about My Mikey’s upcoming (this morning) procedure, because he’s worried enough for an army!!!!!! I think they’ll tell us it’s just stress-related, probably. I know how crazy that sounds, but they can’t find anything "wrong" with me, either, with my stupid GI problems. Such is life, it seems.

So…..

I’m hoping Mama can help us out a little again. Thank GOD payday is coming up, even though we’ll be broke again the same day.

I also came up with an idea just a while ago. I’m going to start writing stories again and try to sell them. It’s all I can come up with right now.

God, I’m pathetic.

My Mikey, I love you forever times PI cubed plus one,

Your Jack

p.s. Thank you for loving me.

This is just a few minutes after my first version of this entry, but My Mikey already noted me, so I added the *EDIT* thing.

Along the same lines of the entry….

I keep reading anything I can get my hands on by older artists of different forms. It could be anyone from an older actress to the diary of Miss Jane Pittman (actually, I’ve only seen the movie of Pittman). Anyway…I find it fascinating to observe how they’ve evolved over the years. How they’ve dealt with things, etc.

My favorite one has to be June Havoc, though, who is now nearing 90 years of age. She said, in the end of her second book, that if we could just keep from falling off the Earth…if we could just be true to whatever self we got stuck with. No mention of how tall, short, handsome, ugly, smart, dumb that self had to be. Just be true to ourselves and keep from falling off the Earth.

Sounds good to me.

Love,

Jack