Yesterday

Proving it, bit by bit……

Something is seriously wrong with Mr. de Corte.  That would be Piers, my "brother with a bad temper" inside the same body as me.

Yesterday, for reasons I’m not quite entirely sure of, he came out and was VERY angry with My Mikey.  He kept harping on the fact that My Mikey presents himself to strangers online as a male.  Well, My Mikey thinks I don’t understand that he IS male inside.  I do understand that.  That’s one thing that made me fall in love with him.  After all, I am gay, and he’d presented himself to ME that way, too.

One thing that was on Piers’ mind was Elisabeth.  He kept thinking about how My Mikey would push Elisabeth away when she’d come try to talk to him, while he was still in California.  Once, when I spoke to Elisabeth, she told me she was Mikey’s niece.  NIECE?  She is My Mikey’s DAUGHTER!!!!!  I didn’t know that then, but now I do, and Piers just doesn’t cope well with that particular memory, perhaps because WE were rejected by our own mother, as well.

After all the talk that has gone on about Mama, it really bothers us, especially Piers, to see someone else do the same, if not worse, to their child and then take no responsibility for it.  The memory sneaked up on us yesterday.  I couldn’t tell you why, really.  It just popped up on us, so Piers attempted to tell My Mikey how he felt about it.  That was a bad idea.  Nobody EVER wants to talk to Piers when he is angry, so from now on, we won’t let him have his say, I guess.  Yeah right…as if we can STOP him?!  It will leak over into us; the anger, the hostility.

Piers was telling My Mikey that it was bad for him to present himself as a male physically.  Mikey sends out pictures of men and says they’re him.  I’ve wondered many times myself how My Mikey would’ve felt if, when he’d arrived, Lola had greeted him at the bus station.  If Lola had pretended to be me, or if I were inside HER body somehow, instead of my male body I was born into.  I bet it would not have been so readily accepted, because nobody EVER wants to accept me….but hey, such is life.

Accept me or don’t, folks.  I do, and that’s what counts.

My Mikey, do as ye will.  Harm anyone and it will come back on you.  For that one, I can only hope my love gives me sympathy.

Own your own, you know?

I love you forever times PI cubed plus one,

Your Jack