2:03pm – Today

Proving it, bit by bit……

Hank is listening to "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera. I like the song, so I’m certainly not complaining.

Things got off to a strange start today. We did a transaction on PayPal last night to get gas and smokes. Well, to do it, we had to draw on funds that had not cleared the bank over the weekend. It was wrong, and I knew it, but I did it anyway. Well, to do it, I had to use Mama’s PayPal account. She caught me this morning!

She bailed us out of our overdraft before it could happen, thank God.

So I went to the bank and to buy cigarettes. When I returned, Lola and Hank were getting into it. For once, I got smart. I went up front and made a cool tie. While I was up there, Hank told Lola something rather nasty that Eddrick and I used to say to Lola. He knew it was offensive to Lola because it used to hurt Lola when we said it. They straightened it out, again thank God.

Our tempers get the worst of us too many times. It looks like we’re all on the brink of some really positive revelations. Self revelations. Not just about other people. As Piers said yesterday….what about?!

The day is not done yet, and I’m not sure what to expect; I probably shouldn’t EXPECT anything. Just hope for the best. If we don’t get it, we MAKE IT the best. Make the best of it, perhaps.

Yeah, that’s what we do!

My Key, My Mikey, I love you forever times PI cubed plus one,

Your Jack

Hank, I love you, too, you old GROUCH!

Jacksbetterhalf

July 18, 2005

Well yeah I’m a grouch cant help it sometimes I think other times I can but don’t want to!!!! LOL, if they had anger management for alters I’d go but still prolly be angry at Lola when she does her shit!!!! I dunno I sometimes wonder about it… Is she the mule for my anger right now or what?????

lolamae

Anger is an emotion that most people do not hamdle well. I quess that it takes time to realize things about ourselves. It is painful but helpful. I do not mind that Hank said what he did. It was not Eddrick and I kept telling myself that so I did not freak out. I just went to reading my Frank Sinatra bio and that seemed to help.