5:04pm – And the day is not over yet!

Proving it, bit by bit……

Maybe it will seem uneventful, but just you wait till you hear what has happened today!

I went to the doctor, which took a WAY unpleasant turn, as I had, thanks to my SPOUSE, to expose my penis to the doctor.  First time that’s ever happened, and I surely hope it’s the last!!!!  It’s also the first time a man has touched me there in almost two years.  It was NOT exciting, though.  It was more along the lines of humiliating.  Scientific, of course, but nonetheless humiliating.

Then, we got five new prescriptions.  Effexor and Depakote for HermsTruly here’s depression.  A blood pressure med, as my bp was WAY high today for an extended time frame.  A scrip for Nexium, because we still don’t have the results for my biopsy yet.  One painkiller scrip for Mikey.

I’m tired as all hell, yet I can’t rest right now.  Mikey is in there taking a nap, and Lola is preparing for work.  I guess that means I’m taking her.  We have hardly any gas, and because of limitations on Medicaid, I had to ask my grandmother for the money for two of the meds.  Ain’t life grand, goddamnit?!!!

I’m feeling less than peachy, can you tell?

Fuck, this has been an exhausting time.  My stupid-ass stomach or maybe the intestines…not sure…won’t settle down for very long at a time, so I’m stuck with a chronically aching, burning, or just plain HURTING tummy or guts.  I’ve been depressed because of that AND because of my hearing being so bad.  Then on top of that, I have something wrong with my "waterworks".  If I read about all this in a book, I wouldn’t believe it.  I don’t have a CHOICE but to believe it right now, because it’s happening to me.

We started Mikey back in Physical Therapy yesterday, and so he’s in a lot of pain again.  Goddamn, the luck and the fucking timing!

Hopefully, we will avoid injury this time around….if he gets hurt by someone not paying attention (which is what happened last time), I will go smooth off and hurt them back.  Sharon didn’t pay any attention to Mikey’s reaction when she pushed on his bad leg last time, and she strained a tendon in his leg.  The hospital doc called it a "re-injury".  Ducky!  Won’t ANYONE pay any fucking attention to anything anymore?

Daddy would kill ’em, and I’m about ready to myself.  Not Mikey, mind you.  I have no real problem with him.  Not Hank, either, though when he and Jack or Piers get into fights, I wanna jack-slap them all.  When Oscar gets involved, though, it turns violent and scary.  Very fucking scary.  Terrifying would be a better way to put it, really.

I’m so tired.  I just can’t believe it.  I sleep for what SHOULD be a good number of hours per night.  It ranges from five to eight, usually.  Mostly, I get about five hours on a good night.  That is supposed to be optimal for me, but whatever the fuck is happening INSIDE my body is preventing sleep from being restful.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I also got sick from the freon level in the air conditioner, so I coughed my voice right out!!!

This just keeps getting better and better, doesn’t it?

I miss Tiffany and Elisabeth.

I miss doting on our girls.  Can’t wait till the whole family is back together, especially now that Blanche and Mikey are talking again!

Hank, I’m praying for God’s mercy for us all, and I love you beyond what you know,

Elizabeth "Betty" Louise