And we live on….somehow!!!!

PROVE IT, HERMY……

Sometimes, I get tired of my self-imposed dictates.  Prove it?  Ok….might as well, huh?

This month has seemed to be a time of intensive reflection and self-examination for most of us in my daily life.

My Mikey, who truly does live within the body of Laurice Minton, and I have two daughters and three grandchildren.  One of the grandchildren is not in his mother’s care.  The other two are temporarily out of her care, too.  I am terrified that the family I just earned….yes, goddamnit, I DID EARN EARN EARN this family!!!!!….is going to be ripped apart before I even have a chance to get to know them all.  Not that it would be any better if I got to know them and THEN we got ripped apart!  Geez, Jack…think sometimes!

We have yet to establish a firm wedding date.  We had set our hearts on July 9, 2005.  Now, my grandmother wants us to marry on her birthday, which is December 4.  I’m thinking that it would be best to get married as soon as we can.  There are emotional AND practical reasons for marriage for both of us.

When I have more of a chance, I’ll write more to update on the marriage topic.

Lola is really pensive because of Malcolm’s situation.  She thinks she’s a failure.  She just can’t see how much of a hero I think she is.  She got her son out of a bad situation….more than one!  He’s in foster care by Lola’s voluntary move.  He’s away from his rotten father, and now she’s attempting to get him help.  He’s not very responsive, it seems, but that is not her fault.  I’m not saying that she has zero responsibility, but she doesn’t seem to focus on what she’s done RIGHT anymore.  For a long time, I wanted her to focus on herself and that she wasn’t perfect, and now it’s gone too far the other way!  She seems to think she’s one of the worst people alive.  Not so.  She’s our angel, in many ways.

I don’t have much energy to type more about what’s up, but I’ll get to writing again.  Persona and Mads, I’ve missed you guys!

All of you that note my diary!  I read yours, whether I write in mine or not!

Take care.

Much love from My Mikey and me,

Jack