5:13am – Missing My Mikey

PROVE IT, HERMY……

It is 3:14am in California.  I just woke up a few minutes back, feeling that my Mikey maybe needing me.  There’s been no call (that I am aware of, and I DID check) on my cell.  I am in Corsicana, spending the night at my friends’ Connie and Blake’s house.

Today is Mama’s birthday.  She’s 51 today.  Happy Birthday, Mama!

I was reading through some faves on here, and one thing really disturbs me.  Someone on my list recently broke up with a bf, but he immediately jumped out and had sex with someone else.  What is with gay men that causes that to happen?

Well, ours is not to question why, I’ve always been told….then again, have I EVER listened to that before?  NO! LOL

I miss my Mikey.  I miss him badly.  I hope he is ok.  The thing I’m afraid of is that he has had (or is having) another nightmare.  I’m also afraid that he tried to call the cell and for some reason it didn’t get through.  God, if You are reading what I’m typing, please watch over my darling husband and help him to find me.

I love My Key so much.  He truly is my miracle, and the thought of not being reachable when he needs me is horrid.  I feel like calling, but I don’t know if the ringer is on or off, nor do I know if he has the phone with him.  I don’t want to wake everyone in the condo up because of a feeling.  If I KNEW he needed me, then everyone else could kiss my ass, because then I’d call no matter what.  I don’t KNOW, though.

Today, I’m supposed to meet Johnny’s (my brother’s) girlfriend Skylar for the first time.  I have briefly spoken to her on the phone.  I don’t think she gets the relationship between Johnny and me.  I made them a cd a while back, and I sneaked one of MY recordings onto it.  He called me and asked me if I had put one of my songs on it, and I said yes.  He said he didn’t realize it was I, at first.  I asked him if he’d wondered who the fagg singing on that song was, and he chuckled and said not him…Skylar had commented that it sounded like a fagg, and that’s when it dawned on Johnny it was my voice.  I found that quite funny, but Skylar was mortified that Johnny told me about it.

I think I’m gonna sit out on Connie’s porch with the cell close at hand.  I think I’ll sit out there for a while, just in case My Mikey needs me.  I’m afraid the cell won’t pick up a signal in the house, but I know it WILL pick one up outside.  I’m also signed in to one of my Yahoo! ids on the messenger.

If My Mikey needs me, I pray he finds me.

My Key, My Mikey, I love you with all my heart forever times pi cubed plus one,

Your Jack