She’s fine, life is complicated

AJ is fine. Kind of. She was missing for 13 hours. Scared the living daylights out of me. Her sister said she left a suicide note. It felt like with the passing of each hour, the less likely it was she was coming home. Or if she had done something, they weren’t going to find her in time. Luckily, she was just pissed off and upset. A guy in the band has been bothering her, and she said he "punched her in the "cunt"". I was fuming, naturally. But I don’t really know my options.

I messaged Remus on Facebook asking for advice. He didn’t really have a whole lot to offer, but it was nice to talk to him. I saw him tonight at the competition and… ugh he just gets better every time I see him. I need to let these feelings go.. but he’s all I think about.

But now I’m with Rob… and I’m very happy to be with Rob. We are at a good place in the relationship. I love him, definitely… I’m just not sure how deep that love goes. Kind of like with Remus… except that situation is a lot more complicated.

Sometimes I wish I could just say "HEY, REMUS, WAKE UP, I LOVE YOU!" But I can’t do that. Blah.