Ugh…

I have tried writing three different times today, but it’s like I can’t get out how I’m feeling.

I move in to UNCG tomorrow. I’m excited and nervous and just… I’m feeling everything.

Rob never tried to contact me. Good riddance.

Remus was at practice. It was wonderful and horrible. I love him and I hate myself for it. I think he moved in with his girlfriend a couple weeks ago. It’s so hard because I just want him to be happy, but at the same time I want him to be happy with me. I could never tell him but I want to and it’s driving me mad. But it doesn’t matter, because he could never love me. He’s wonderful and kind and charming and friendly and I’m an ugly antisocial basket case.