Depo = Fatigue and irritability

I have been progressively more and more tired ever since I got the shot until now I am absolutely exhausted. The past two days I have been cranky and snappy with everyone. I don’t know if the irritability is stemming from the fatigue, but I don’t like it. We’ll see how this goes, and if I stay like this, I’m not getting the shot again – probably get on the ring. This is just ridiculous. I’ve never been so snappy with Rob.

That is also part of the reason I haven’t updated in a while. I used to be able to stay up til up to 2am and still be okay in the morning. Now I am completely worn out by the time I get home – if not before, which is the norm – so I usually check Facebook for five seconds and either call Rob or go to bed. Lately he’s been in the habit of going on to bed so I haven’t been talking to him much after I go home.

I don’t see him again until Sunday. This is really strange. I know some of you are like "oh but it’s just two days" but when you’re typically around someone almost every day it’s very unusual not to see them for that long. Fortunately(and unfortunately at the same time) I have practice tomorrow night from 4-7, and practice again Saturday from 9-5. Then for the next five Saturdays after that, we have competitions. Then spring break. Then the DC trip.

And now Sigler wants me to do some saxophone retreat. It costs like forty dollars, and to be honest, I really just don’t want to go. I want my weekends back. Plus I don’t think I’m going to be doing jazz band again next year so it’s rather pointless. Most of the kids in my band class are using up all of their elective classes for band classes – stupid, no?

My hopeful class list for next year:

AP English 4
Discrete Math
Environmental Science
Speech and Debate
Teacher Cadet 2
Humanities
Foods
Band

Speech and Debate is a new class this year that a lot of kids are actually pretty excited about. I don’t think I really need to explain this.

Humanities teaches the history of drama, art, literature, and music (right up my alley, eh?). It hasn’t been a class for the past few years because there weren’t enough kids to take it. Now we’ve got a lot going so hopefully it will work out. If not… I’m in jazz band next year.

Wow, I’ve actually written a lot and I feel BETTER for once! I need to keep up with this – maybe I have just needed to let some things go and I haven’t really had the opportunity.

And now that I think of it – and if you read nothing else, READ THIS!

Sigler came up to me and Jessica a couple weeks ago and told us that our marching band show next year is likely to be very clarinet heavy, therefore we should not have expectations for drum major.

Um. Do you even understand how BADLY I have wanted to be drum major??? I’ve dreamed about it for 3 damn years! Fortunately, he is fairly wishy-washy so it’s likely that he will have changed his mind by the time we have tryouts. Not to mention I talked to Ms. McGuire about it(the teacher that did drum major tryouts last year) and she said not to worry about it. I think she actually gets how much I care about this. Sigler has been building me up for the past three years for this – told my mother that she was going to have a drum major in the family my freshman year, made me try out for drum major in sophomore year, and made me assistant drum major my junior year. I mean, call me conceited, but does that not sound like I should be drum major? I worked my ASS off for that position and I deserve it, damn it!

Anyway, Rob said he was going to call before he goes to bed and it’s midnight and he hasn’t called. Off to bed for me, then.