Short update

So, yeah, I suck at updating. While reading a book last week, it asked me to stop and spend some time thinking about a certain thing. So, I did. And I realized how little time I spend on self-reflection. The truth is, I tend to saturate nearly every moment of my waking life with some form of media. Be it TV or computer or music or books, I find something to occupy me. For Lent, I gave up television, and that freed up more time for me to read or do housework or whatever. So it’s been kind of nice since I don’t read as much as I would like anyways. I’m going to try to make more attempts at being intentional on getting my thoughts down and diving deeper in myself. Which means less lurking and more updates.

So, to the actual update. Things haven’t been going too well at home again. The doctor switched some of Tina’s meds a few months ago she/we has/have been sliding downhill since. There is a big difference between this time and last time in that when she lashes out and sees the pain on my face, she immediately apologizes. The last time we went through this, she could really give a crap less. So I have to hold on to that. Although, the other day I had to tell her that in the ocean of our marriage, I feel like I’m being pulled down by the waves of her sadness. Not that there is much she can do about it at the moment, but we have an appointment to see a new medicine/witch doctor in April to get her meds adjusted. Which is good because the one she had been seeing is four hours away and his office isn’t really good at returning her calls. She has also heard from a few of our friends about how good this doctor is, so I’m looking forward to that. Basically, I am just holding on. Tight.

Be blessed,

Brian