Nothing exciting to report.

Oh miserable day. Snowfall warning. Wind. High temp of minus 17. Beautiful. I’m so ready for spring, and living in and knowing Alberta, it’s no where near close. We might get a few Chinook-y days after this stretch, but I’m sure there are a few more little tricks like this one up Mother Nature’s sleeve before all is said and done. Oh well…what can you do.

As always, I’m feeling better than in my last entry – those days come & go. Looking back over the past few years I’ve noticed that February is a hard month emotionally for me. I bet if I looked back at my work attendance over the past few February’s I’d see a spike in the number of sick hours taken during this month over any others. Oh well…once again, not much I an do about it, but be aware of it and not be too hard on myself if when I do have those bad days.

I don’t really feel like I have a whole lot to write about today, but I NEED to write…it’s only 10am and it feels like I’ve been at work for hours and hours. This isn’t a time that you want to be caught bored or with a lack of work to do…the reality is that if I don’t have enough work to keep me bust then why are they paying me a full time rate. I know I could do this job in it’s entirety in a part time capacity, but that would be part-time pay which wouldn’t be cool right now. The more I read and the more I watch the news and business reports, I’m becoming more aware just how lucky I am to have this job – pays well, great benefits, good hours of work (no OT, no weekends) – I just don’t know why I can’t be more engaged in it. I sound like a broken record on the work topic, I know I do, but I can’t help how much I don’t want to be here. How much I don’t feel like doing this type of work. Blah…I don’t know what I’m missing, but there is something that I need at work that I’m not getting…social interaction perhaps? That will change soon enough when we move offices again to be with the rest of the team, but in all honesty –there’s not too many that I would like to get to know any better. I miss the strong and unique personalities of the colleagues I used to have in the hotel industry – strong, opinionated, humourous, different…these people seem to be carbon copies of one another. One no more passionate or hilarious than the next. I don’t know…maybe I should just chalk these concerns up to me being less passionate, less humorous, less of many things right now. I’m just so bored and this does not usually generate the best in my personality or though patterns.

Hmmm…what else can I ramble on about. Chatted with Trevor briefly yesterday on MSN. He’s jobless again, but actually making an effort to look for work. It won’t be easy, he’s burned a lot of bridges and done a lot of dumb things in his past. Kamloops is pretty small and it doesn’t take long for your reputation to precede you. I’m pretty proud of him though (if what he told me is true) – he’s stopped drinking, stopped the coke (stopped all things illegal except jaywalking apparently!), he’s closer to his family than he has been in the past – it’s all good things and I wish nothing but the best for him. I hope he can find work and keep it together…I never thought we’d get to the point we cold have an actual conversation without throwing insults at one another…a lot of time has passed and time does heal wounds…I actually want to help him if I can. He’s supposed to let me know if he’s still interested in roofing and I’ll e-mail Colin to see if he ha anything with Western. I fear, from past hurt though, that if I help him, he’ll fuck up and drag my name through the mud with his own. He assured me he wouldn’t do that to me…I wonder how many times one person can break promises before trust is lost. Maybe it’s more of a case that time has healed some of that trust because had he told me 3 years ago he lost his job I would have told him to go find a street corner and suck for a buck. I don’t feel that kind of anger towards him anymore. It’s nice. It’s freeing to know it’s not there anymore. And…I think he finally clued in I’m married and won’t be sleeping with him again. Wonder of all wonders!

I have a private yoga lesson at lunch today. I’m really hoping to get a good stretch of my back and hips out of it. I’m still in some pain…too much acrobatics this weekend. That should break up the day a bit…when I get back from that I’ll only have 5 hours until Rob picks me up. Great. How come time goes by so slowly when rob has the truck and I’m stuck here?! Boo.

Hmm…what else random can I write about? Nothing much. The theme of my life (and this entry) is boredom.  I can’t even write about our drive to <span style="font

-size: x-small”>Banff on Saturday – we were in town and out in 20 minutes! Oh, we cleaned house on Saturday – that was good. It’s so delicious to have a clean house. I still have like 15 loads of laundry, but it’s all hidden out of site now, so we’re not tripping over it. Next project after finishing laundry is to steam clean our couches. We got a flyer the other day from a company that does it – $49 per love seat…we have 3. I wanted to call and have them come and do it, but after I made up our budget for the next 3 months and got Rob to sign off on promising to follow it, I wasn’t gong to screw around with it to try and find the extra money to have someone do it. We can do it – it’ll save us in 2 ways – a) cheaper to do it ourselves & b) will take most of one day, so we will have something to occupy our time and won’t be out spending money.

My mom leaves for Palm Springs today for 2 weeks. I’m happy for her that she’s getting away and will be somewhere sunny when she needs that the most. I’m happy that I don’t have the pressure of calling her hanging over my head for the next 2 weeks. It’s been kind of rough since Christmas – hopefully her trip will be good for both of us. Apparently the next big thing will be Cassidy’s confirmation – we’re going to have to figure out how to go, not stay at my brother’s and keep my mom & sister in law as far away from each other as possible. Oh God – that’s exhausting to think about already. It’s not until the end of May, so I’ll wait for a bit to get my knickers in a knot over this one.

Well, I think I’m done for now. I just re-read part of this and it’s so boring I didn’t even want to finish. Wicked.

Oh but I forgot…although Old News…6.0 oh Lord. I’m not a big fan of change (so much so that I’m having a really hard time watching John & Kate Plus 8 because they moved to a new house) – I’m having a hard time with this new OD. I’m sure in time I’ll forget that it was ever different, but right now?! Holy Dina! It’s like using the web for the first time! I read the DM’s entry about it and good thing I did or I wouldn’t know how to read my faves (or “friends”) – I can’t figure out though how I’m missing reading so many entries. When I log in and look at “bookmarks” there are so many un-bloded and only a few bolded, but I haven’t looked at the un-bolded ones yet. Hmmm…actually, I wonder if someone is logging on as me? Maybe I’ll change the old password just in case. I’m sure it’s just the new-ness of the site though. Yay change…Not.