Memorial Day!

This day should mean more then what we give it credit for…

I am so thankful for all of the giving Soldiers..

No matter your branch or field let me please tell you

THANK YOU

Without you I would not be able to raise my daughter

with the freedom I have now!

In saying all that I can get to saying MAN its been awhile since I have been on here! I have been going through so many different feelings recently and just an abundance of excitement… Rather it has been good or bad company I dunno justt sooo much… Ok well here I go! IN the past 2 years I have been at the same Job 😛 That is def a good thing and also alot of changes there we have gone through at least 30 people in different positions… Either they were getting fired or just quit but to me that means that was that many people comming in and out of my life! Cause seriously to me MY work is also where I do all of my socializing so you tend to get close to the people that you work with! Well at least I do! So anyways i think that has played a role on me! Plus i am seperated from my husband who I have no intentions in getting back together with… we have not filed for a DIVO cause MONEY!… Well at least that is my reason! Sooooo he has also been with his girl for over a year!…… I was in a serious relationship with this guy named Jeff! We didnt make it to our YEAR! For me this was incredibley sad! I LVOED him and sadly but honestly i still have theese rediculous feelings for him! That i know i should not have but you know you cant make your self feel a certain way!

Ok so now the whole bestfriend thing… Wendy… I love her to death but she does not have the ability to have a healthy relationship with anyone… Even me who forgives her without her even asking me to! Now I am not perfect I know this trust me i know i am far from it…. But she takes everything to an extremem but just like we have always said we will still always stay the BEST Of Friends…. Just a little blood on the way…. Speaking of Blood let me get onto the subject of GOD! the one who i keep turnning my back on…. the ONE who will ever only be the only ONE that willl allways be there for me! I am so ashammed of myself and the way i have let my self turn this life that he gave me into what i have! PLUS i have soooo def not been the mom i have needed to be!

Whewww,,,,,,,, and thats just getting started! I keep staying up late when i have to get up early in the morning and its tarring me down so I will have to finish this tomorrow night!

Hopefully i work out tomorrow! WILL POWER KICK IN PLEASE!

Christine Elizabeth… The recovering Procrastinator! and soon to be a BETTER Mommy! and most importantly CLOSER TO GOD!