Pumping/standing in crib*

As I mentioned awhile ago, I’ve been only pumping. I think it’s been 2 weeks since I’ve nursed him. I wished I would’ve taken that moment in. I decided pumping only on the spur of the moment.

I go back and forth on keeping it up or not. I’ll go til my next pack of mini-pills are up for sure. That’ll put me to the end of April/beg of May I think. I really dislike pumping at work as I’ve mentioned. Pumping at home isn’t bad. I’ve been doing ok with being a bottle ahead of feeding. I was worried when I first started since I had to take 2 bags out of the freezer right away. I did end up putting 2 fresh bags in the freezer. I’ve kinda got a time thing going and seems to be working. IF Bruce gets up in middle of the night, I feed him a bottle. Then when I get him asleep, I pump to replace that bottle. I’m ready to be done but then not quite.

Bruce has taken up standing in his crib. We have lowered the mattress. It makes it SOOOO much harder to put him to bed now. Before I’d lay him down, if he wasn’t fussing, I’d leave and he’d fall asleep. Now, I lay him down, he rolls over to a sit, pulls himself up and chews on the rail. Repeat, repeat, repeat. I leave the room but still end up having to come back. It’s like he has to be THIS close to falling asleep so he’ll stay laying down.

We’ve been bad with having him nap in the swing all this time. I have lots of trouble getting him to sleep in the crib. He was super tired, so I put him in the crib and pumped there. Then gave him the bottle. That time in the crib I think got his standing in there out of the way. I did turn on a CD. He’s sleeping in there! So far it’s been a half hour. With the swing, there’s music that plays. I don’t know if that’s what he needed, that’s why I tried the CD just now.

I want to go to Joanns and get some fabric to make a darkening shade for his window. With it getting lighter out later, I think he might need it. His shade doesn’t block the light at all. Which is a bummer, it’s brand new. I told Roger I wished we would’ve done the same as we did with the living room, that we just got. Those are double cell or whatever. Blocks some of the sunlight. The one in Bruce’s window is single. Our house face South. The front side of the house just gets a little more sunlight that comes in the window vs the back of the house. I’ve said if we got a new shade for Bruce, we could put that one in our room. We have a darkening shade and our room is in the back.

*As soon as I saved this entry Bruce was up. I think that CD I had going had just stopped. Oh well. Now he’s napping in the swing. He takes two naps a day usually.

I told Roger I was on the fence of just switching to formula. I know he’ll do whatever I want. He said I’m so close to 9 months. Like I have said before about maybe that’s my goal. So April 21st cmon! lol. I have a couple Target formula coupons. I might use those before they expire. Pumping just isn’t the same. It is satisfying knowing that I’m providing but I’m ready to be done. I don’t know how my cousin exclusively pumped for 6 months! I’ve only been doing that for 2 weeks and I’m ready to call it quits!

**Crap! I might be done pumping. I was just about to say my session was done and the motor started making a funny sound. I’m unplugged everything. Waiting a little bit and try it again. At least I’m ok if I do have to stop. What’s with me and pumps. Everyone I’ve used has broken.