Work

I get paid every other Thursday. Last week I looked at my paycheck (direct deposit) online before I went to work, since I needed gas. Part of my check was at a different hourly pay. I was confused but ok. After being at work for awhile, the store manager talked to me and said that the company has been researching competative pay. They have raised the wages for every job title. For me, that meant $1.97 increase! That’s huge! I’m stoked about that.

Work is eh. There are times that I don’t mind it and there are times I don’t like it. In all the time before having the baby, I rarely ever had the "I hate work" feeling. Even when I was being the manager. Now it’s different. I’m not sure if it’s my frame of mind, or I’m not doing a good job, or just the fact that the rest of the staff is new and there’s drama. I wonder if my manager just depended so much from me before, now I’m not there as much, that I’m not doing a lot of her work like I was doing has something to do with it. Some of the stuff I was doing for her has changed. 

Yesterday I came in and she was on a rampage. I kept thinking "holy bad mood batman". She had Wednesday off, so don’t people usually come back refreshed after a day off? Never her. With her bad mood, I do play that off on, is it something I did. Maybe, maybe not. I do try to do my best. It’s just when she says stuff about the other employees, what they’re slacking on. Sometimes I wonder if she’s cluing me in on this because she’s trying to tell me something without directly saying it. She’s always been one to fill me in on everything because it was always, when she’s not there, I’m there, I’m in charge. 

I was working 4-5 days before, now I’m 3 days. I know she hates that I work 6am on Wednesdays cause she wants all the morning shift. Honestly though….she’s supposed to work every other weekend and she doesn’t. She has for a very long time (couple years). I don’t know why she gets away with it. She will work a weekend if needed. IF she worked every other weekend like she’s supposed to, she’d need a day off during the week. I picked Wednesday morning cause nothing is going on Wednesdays for her (Monday is meeting day, Tuesday is ordering day).

I have to say, right now I am glad I’m working. Roger hasn’t been working very much at all. It’s nice that I do get a check and it’s now going to be the same as it was before I had Bruce (with the help of the payraise). It is nice to get a break from home. But when work seems so eh, it makes me want to stay home.