This and That

This post is probably going to be all over.

1.) I keep thinking about if and when we’ll have another child. I think I’ve mentioned this before. Why do I keep thinking about this? Right now I feel totally fine with just having one. Not even sure if I want another. I’ve always had it in my mind that I’d have 2, or maybe even 3 kids. Also there’s sure a baby boom, everyone everywhere is pregnant. I would like the age gap to be close, if can be controlled. It did take us 4 years to have a healthy pregnancy, who knows if the next pregnancy will happen right away and great or if it’ll take a long time again. Also, there’s a family reunion trip, it’s the absolute best thing, it’s every 2 years. We missed it this year cause Bruce was born a week before. And it’s 23 hours away. I really don’t want to miss the 2014 one, but it seems like that would be ideal time to have another (if can control it). Anywho, too much thinking.

2.) Work bums me out. I don’t mind actually working and the work. I just don’t like that the other decorator doesn’t do all the orders for the weekends. I’m sure she thinks since my job title is a decorator and I’m working, to leave them for me. On the weekends I bake, I don’t have time to decorate. Get really stressed/bummed out. I talked to my manager about it. I never felt like this with any of the decorators prior. I don’t mind helping out, but she actually leaves them for me.

3.) My mom told me that my brother told her that SIL thinks I don’t like her. I don’t know what to do with this. She’s a person who takes things so personally. I always felt like it’s being on eggshells around her. Part of it is cause I don’t let her hold Bruce. I told my mom, "You know I don’t like anyone holding him" so it’s not just her. (Last time we saw her, Roger held Bruce the whole time, so it’s not just me). My mom says I need to try harder. I told her I give up. I’m not changing my ways. I don’t think I’m doing anything wrong (yeah I know that sounds selfish, it just pisses me off). We just aren’t the same type of people either. Oh well.

4.) I got my hair cut to just past my shoulders. It’s layered nicely (noticeably) and when I use the straight iron, I try to flip the ends out. I like it. I might try to keep up with it, as in go in in 2 months for a trim. I never keep up with a style or cut. With my hair so long and Bruce being so grabby, my hair is always pulled back. I was hoping that maybe this length I won’t pull it back (I can still pull it back. Now when he grabs it isn’t such a big chunk of hair.

Ok off to feed him some peas.

Bruce is 6 months & 4 days old