2nd Day

Wednesday night I broke down to Roger. I know everything is positive about me going to work. Bruce will learn to be away from me, be with others, and really the others are Roger and my mom. But that’s still good. It does give me a break from routine. He’ll get to know grandma (my mom) really well. It just was hard knowing that he cried a lot. My dad had text me that he cried a bit. Then I found out he wasn’t really home to know. My mom said he cried some. Looking at him, he looked beat. I think my mom sugar coated it a little. Plus, WE know what’s going on and that it’s just an adjustment. Bruce doesn’t know and doesn’t understand yet.

Yesterday I worked noon-6pm. I made sure Bruce got a good morning nap. Roger was home by 1:30. My mom said Bruce was all happy, talking a lot. He was good for Roger too. At worked it was cool to find out they were finally able to change my job title to Cake Decorator instead of Bakery Clerk. I got a little merit raise. My 6 month review is up and I saw what I’ll be up to and I’m up. So that made me happy. It kinda sucked, my manager was done at 3. I figured I’d take my pump break then. Well then she wanted to show me how to do something on the computer before she left, something new. Took 45 minutes. I fed Bruce at 11, now it’s 3:45. Then at end of work, I didn’t get out of there til 6:23, had to buy a couple things. Got home at 7. Roger didn’t give him a bottle so I could feed him instead of pumping, Well I don’t know if that’s a good idea. Roger had to deal with a hungry baby. If I got home at 6:30 it would’ve been fine.

Speaking of pump. OMG. My electic pump broke AGAIN. I called last Friday morning. I still haven’t gotten my replacement. I went an bought a hand pump. That’s just stupid. It works but lame. Yesterday on my pump break, I tried the electric and it worked. I don’t know how much it will work. I’m thinking about buying another but I don’t want to invest a lot of money into it. I don’t know how long I want to do this for. I’m thinking 3 more months. I’ve also been thinking about just pumping, I really don’t know. I need a reliable one.

I was thinking about renting one, but for some reason I think that could cost more than buying one.

I can’t decide what to get. They’re all so expensive

Tomorrow and Sunday I work at 6am. I think I’m not going to wake Bruce up since he’s not going anywhere. I’ll just pump.