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It’s come to my attention that I haven’t updated my OD in forever. Lol, thanks Wally. It’s not that I’m overly busy or stressed or anything like that. It’s because I have such a slow frickin connection that OD takes forever to upload. But I wouldn’t want anyone to worry about me.

So, life is going well. I’m still living with Drunkin and Douchebag. I’m having a hard time saving money. It’s just that it’s been soooooooo long since I’ve been able to spend money, that I just keep spending it. I can’t help it! I know it’s bad, I want out of here in the worst way, but I also have to make sure that I get hired in before I can get a place. I’m also having a problem with finding a cheap car. They just don’t seem to be out there. That’s a real bummer. After I get a car, finding a place won’t be hard.

I guess I haven’t updated since before the boys went home. That was a rough week. That Friday nite I went to Tosh’s to have dinner with the family. The week before I went to a family reunion with his mom and the Mini’s. His brother was there with his son and girlfriend. That was amusing. She was kinda trashy and I got along with her ok, but she wasn’t what I expected him to be dating. I know he’s 40, but she just looked old and wore out. Apparently, she used to be married to one of their cousins and they’ve been divorced for like 17 years. It was an odd family reunion. Lol.

The nite before the boys left, everyone was there. We had pizza and junk, it was fun but sad at the same time. Tosh was touchy feely and stuff, but I didn’t really know what to say to him. I kinda wanted to hug the boys before I left but I didn’t. They were watching TV and I didn’t want it to be strange that I was hugging them. So I left them alone. Lol.

They ended up missing their flight because of construction on the highway and had to take a flight 3 hours later. I felt so bad for Tosh, being trapped in the airport with his boys and just waiting and waiting for them to leave. 🙁 He ended up coming over here and spending the nite as my uncle was out of town for the weekend.

I’d like to say it’s nice to have him back, but I really don’t see him that much anymore. Mostly weekends. He works retail and I work office hours, it completely sucks. He said he “can’t wait until the day that he can end his days cuddled on the couch with me”. *sigh* Me either.

Life around the house has been ok. Mycousinamberthewhore had her baby, she’s ugly enough said about that. My Aunt Queenie’s oldest kid has moved here to go to college and that’s about the biggest deal ever. *roll eyes* I could care less. Douchebag’s girlfriend finally had their baby. I haven’t seen him yet and really I don’t care if I do. Yep, I’m a bitch, but these people have made my life shitty off and on for the last like 17 years, so fuck em. That’s how I look at it anyway, I mean great you popped out a kid. Anyone can do that. Losers.

I still love my job. It’s going great. I have a blast most days at work and then there are days when I wish the phone would just fucking stop for like 5 minutes so I can catch my breath. There are the office politics of course, but I stay out of those. I want no part in the drama. I’ll listen to it, but I don’t pass the shit on. No need for that. My 90 days will be up in like 2 weeks and that makes me so happy! I really hope they don’t fuck me over like the last company that was going to temp to hire me.

What else? Hmmmm….oh Marley’s wife served him with divorce papers and then they decided to work it out after she got him to go get on meds. Tosh is furious over it and I think it’s kinda shitty as well, but we can’t live his life for him. If he wants to stay with the cunt, there’s nothing we can say about it. Marley actually told me today that he doesn’t think that Tosh will be happy until he’s single. That may very well be the truth, but I don’t think it’s so much that he wants him to be single, he wants him to be himself and happy. Not medicated and only happy because he can’t be anything else.

OH OH OH, I finally got my divorce papers! It’s about fucking time! Rollie sent me a text last week and said he was going to file them, about an hour later he asked when I wanted them served. I told him then, he was only 5 minutes from where I work and I didn’t want something to happen where I didn’t get them and then it would void it’s self out or something. That happened to Napoleon when her ex filed the first time and she ended up having to file them again. No sir, no thanks! So he shows up looking exactly the same as he always has. And I got all shaky, not because I love him but just because. I dunno know why really. I was happy, so happy to sign those papers. After he left he started texting me. *rolls eyes* He told me how good I looked and how he was happy to see me working. Blah blah blah. And then he said that he “hated seeing me, cuz, well just cuz” Really? Fuck off and die. I won’t play that game. I decided over a year ago that I was done and he had decided more than a year ago to just not even try anymore. He’s just jealous that I’m happy now.

Saturday October 2, 2010

Update… I get hired in on Monday!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got a $3 an hour raise and I get medical. No dental or optical, but I can live with that. I’m so freakin happy!!!!! *dances like snoopy* I so love my job! Life is getting better every day for me. Now I just need to find a car and then an apartment is the easy part. $13 bucks an hour is perfect for me!

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