I miss you. I miss you too…

“At least you’re having fun even though I’m not around.” “Not as much as I do when you are around.” “Well, that’s good to know at least.”
These last couple weeks have been kinda hard for me. I miss Tosh. I haven’t got to see him much because he’s been working and the boys are here. I’ve spent time with the boys and his mom, I’ve babysat the boys, I’ve even gone to a family party with everyone but him. It totally sucks. I miss him so much that sometimes when we get off the phone I get all teary-eyed. To that he says “Dont look at it that way. Look at it like now the little time we get to see each other can be like really really good. And one day when u have a place i can be waiting with dinner when u get outta work. Oh baby don’t be sad.” Which of course him saying that made me want to cry even more. Bleh. Even with other people, I’m lonely without him. He posted on facebook the other day “missing my other half so much lately it hurts”, yeah I can dig that.

So yes, I have gotten a job. 🙂 I started last week. I’m a receptionist for a small company. Mostly it’s just answering phones, but I’m ok with that. Everyone seems to be really nice and I like it so far. I love the Monday through Friday work week. It’s awesome.

I realized I haven’t even talked about the boys at all. Jeezuz the last time I updated was almost a month ago. I ended up going to the airport with Tosh and his mom to pick them up. I was so tired, I kept trying to sleep in the car and it wasn’t working. Tosh made me get up at like 7am and we didn’t even have to leave until like 1. He was so ‘cited though, I can’t really blame him. We ended up getting there just as the plane got in because we couldn’t find the parking. Lol. His mom is a scary driver. In the tram to get to the terminal I saw a dude from the Syfy channel. He used to be on Xenia, but I can’t think of his name. He’s dorky with dark hair and I think he was like a jester or something. So I said something to Tosh about it and he was like “are you sure it’s him?”. It was, someone else finally said something to him about traveling alone. Lol, well yeah it’s easier to not draw a crowd when you’re alone. And really? He’s like D-list at most. The boys are adorable. They came flying down the hallway and into Tosh. It made me kinda sad. He misses his boys so much when they’re not around. G is the baby, he’s 7. Tosh thinks he looks just like him but really he doesn’t. lol, I just don’t see it. He dark eyed and haired with olive skin. J is 10 and looks just like Tosh. Lighter hair and the same eyes. He’s even got his mouth. They’re both so cute though. J then spilled m&m’s all over the concourse, lol, so we had to round those up and throw them away. They were so ‘cited to be here. The ride home was pretty quiet, the boys played their DS’s and just chatted about their flight.

So, they’ve been here about a month and I call them the Mini’s. lol. We’ve not done a whole lot of stuff, but Tosh includes me in on everything he can. I like that about him. He thinks of me as family. I think of him as home. His boys are very well behaved when he’s around, and when I’ve been alone with them, but when they are with their gram they are naughty. They don’t listen to her at all. J talks back and has like no patience and G is just naughty. She’s not trying to fix the problem; she just gets exasperated with them and lets them do what they want. Not really a good thing, but I’m not going to stick my nose into it.

Napoleon is still preggo and doing well. I’ve been spending more time with her. I love my sister. We have fun.

I get my first paycheck on Friday, I can’t wait. Omg. It’s only going to be like $200, but it’s more money than I’ve had in a very very long time.

Oh, I emailed Rollie the other day to find out when he’s filing divorce papers. Ugh. He says he’s going to do it the first week of August. Yeah, we’ll see. He also said that he had to file for bankruptcy and that’s why he hadn’t done it sooner. What a dick. He filed without me and apparently in the state of Michigan you can do that. I’m so glad I’m not with him anymore.

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