drinking is stupid

it will get you no where.

This last week has been a strange one. Well, more tumultuous than anything else.

I know something went on last weekend other than fighting but I don’t remember what it was. Oh I remember, we went down to Marley’s house. I wasn’t gonna go because I was sick, but they were going to be doing shrooms so Tosh really wanted me to go. I was feeling ok, so I went. Omg! I didn’t do them, I have no interest in them, but to watch other people on them was like the funniest thing I’ve ever seen. I’ve never seen anyone trip, it just was never my thing or something that my crowd did. There were two other guys with them doing them and Marley’s wife and I just watched. Marley ended up being really quiet and just went to bed. Tosh believes that he had a bad trip and just needed to be away from everyone, but Marley would never admit that.

The one dude kept talking about Avatar. I guess he’d just seen the movie and the people in the neighbor’s yard had blue shirts on. It was kinda freakin him out, lmfao.

Needless to say a good time was had by all. I laughed so much; everyone was in a good mood. Of course I drove us home; Tosh was too messed up to do it. We talked on the way home and I guess shrooms don’t really mess with your mental capacity; they just make things pretty and you silly. It wasn’t what I expected, I mean really, I thought that he was going to do them and I was gonna be like “I can’t talk to you anymore”. It just wasn’t like that though, he was actually sweet. Introduced me to the other guys as his girlfriend and was talking sweet on the way home. He was happy that I went with him and happy to be out and about with me on such a beautiful nite. Really, that wasn’t the shrooms talking, it was beautiful. Lol.

Sometimes I don’t think that he’s very sensitive and stuff, but then he always seems to come up with something to say or do that changes my mind. Like the karate chop thing. Lol, the other day he tells me they’re love taps and forgets about doing it for 2 weeks. So, once he remembered, I was massively chopped. I keep trying to tell him instead of chopping me, he should just hug me. Hugs are better than chops. Lol, he says at least he shows he cares about me and isn’t cold. He says some guys don’t even show that they care, which is totally true. I’ve just never dated someone who wasn’t really touchy feely. It’s something new for me. But really, when he does hug me or kiss me or just touch me for no reason it means all the more because he’s not doing it all the time. He has been a lot more apt to throw out the “I love you’s” lately though.

Anywhore, things were pretty much ok most of the week. Tosh and I didn’t do much of anything. Just hung out and stuff. Then Thursday nite Cody and Drunkin got into it big time. Tosh and I were in my room listening to it all. Cody was being a dick and Drunkin was, well drunk. Go figure. At some point it became physical. I refused to go upstairs and get involved. They didn’t punch each other, but I could hear them wrestling around. So, Drunkin called the police and Cody sat and waited for them to show up. I don’t think that he thought they were going to make him leave. *shrug* dumbass. So the police show up and just make Cody leave.

It was a tense nite and I kept waiting for my uncle to come down or something. But no, Tosh had to pee so I had to go upstairs with him and I got trapped in the living room for half an hour while my uncle got teary eyed then shitty and then just stupid. I came down and Tosh was sitting here with the TV on mute apologizing to me for making me go upstairs. Lol. it’s not that big of a deal.

Friday I stayed at my aunt’s house. I needed a nite away and didn’t want to be around my uncle. Saturday Tosh came and got me, it was raining and yucky so we just hung out and watched tv and played PS3.

Again my uncle got drunk. Today was a boring day. Tosh wasn’t having a good day, he said it’s because he misses me and hates being away from me. So he did come over for a bit. I wanted him to stay, but he’d stayed last nite and I don’t need shit from my uncle again. Sunday’s just aren’t Sundays without Tosh here. I love this man. I’m in love with this man. I hope that my actions and words show him just how much.