Sometimes I really hate my life and then
I remember I have you in it and its not so bad after all.
I know Ive been really bad about updating, but gods its been so nice out and typically when I sit down at the computer lately its to rant about Red Wings and Zebras. Fuckin Zebras.
I dont even know where to start. Things with Tosh and I are fine. Weve been playing a lot of PS3 lately and not as many nature walks as before. Mostly because its been raining, a bit too chilly or way too windy to go and hes picky about the weather for walking. Lol.
His boys will be here in just over a month. Im nervous about meeting them. I know that they know about me and stuff, but I dont know how theyre going to react to me. Im hoping theyre like most little boys and just love me. I tend to pick up all kinds of little boyfriends everywhere I go. Lol. Hey Mel, remember Benjamin, but you can call me Ben from Lawson? Lmfao. He was too cute.
Ive found out that my uncle thinks that its ok to go into my room, because its his house. My aunt gave me a couple boxes of girlscout cookies from last year and apparently he saw them in my room and wanted to know where I got money to buy them. My grandmother asked me where I got them and I told her, then I said something to my aunt about it. I figured she had said something to my gram about them and blah blah blah. No, the fucker goes into my room like Im a child. I hate him more and more.
His retarded son (read, a kid that he raised for most of his life because he dated his also retarded mother), Cody has moved in with us. This kid never graduated from high school and even failed out of adult ed. His loser mom kicked him out when he turned 18 in January and hes been here for almost 2 months. I may have mentioned him before Im not sure. Anyway, this kid is nothing but trash. Hes a pot head with no job and no intentions of getting a job. Hes always asking Tosh to smoke with him and if hell sell him some. None of which has ever happened. But what happens is this kids aunt brings him over pot and valium at all hours of the nite and no one knows. He goes to the plasma bank twice a week so he can buy smokes and pot. He eats all of the food that I buy and then says oh, sorry. So the pot head gets stoned, gets the munchies and then eats a bag of fucking pizza rolls, that I asked him not to eat.
I used to feel bad for him, but now he just pisses me off. He has no respect for anyone or anything. Its bullshit. Drunkin asked Tosh not to smoke in the house anymore, because he cant get Cody to quit. Funny the alcoholic cant keep the pot head sober. Fuckin imagine that!?
I need a goddamn job!
Tosh didnt get the job at World Market and the YWCA keeps calling me, but its only part time and not even 9 an hour. Its not worth my time. All it would do is get me out of the house for 4 hours a day and make me have to pay rent. I have to find something full time and decent paying so I can get the fuck out of here.
Last week Tosh got us a hotel room twice. Just so we could get away and relax. The first one was at Motel 6, I didnt complain. It was nice for it to be just us. The second one he got us was the Jacuzzi suite at a Baymont. That was awesome. He didnt tell me at first where we were going, but he was like make sure you bring your bath junk, I know you like to take them. He totally spent too much money, but it was so awesome.
He kept asking me if there was anything that I needed and I kept telling him no. He felt bad that he was spending all his tax money on himself in front of me. I told him it was his money and that I had nothing to do with it. And he did take us out to eat a few times. So, finally, I tell him I need a new toy. You can buy me a new one. We drove out to the Lions Den and I picked up the least expensive egg I could find and he was pissed when he found out it was only $10. we were on the highway and he was like I had planned to spend so much more on you there, why didnt you let me? Well, because Im just not like that. Thats why. Hes been really amazing lately, keeping me out of the house when things get rough around here. Just really being my rock.
The days that we arent together he leaves me offlines that say Thinking Of You Baby and texts that say missing u. And of course I melt. The thinking of you ones always make me think of like Hallmark, but hes not a card guy so I think thats the closest Ill ever get to that.
Oh, my uncle Chuck died. Before you send condolences, its ok. Im not upset or sad or anything. Hes Wards brother and I havent seen him since my grandma died 10 years ago. Ok, so its sad because he used to be a really cool uncle, till he had a kid and got strange. My dads whole family got stupid with everyone in the family and shit got strange. Maybe someday Ill write about it, but tonite is not the nite for that.
Drunkin and Cody are fighting and its just completely ridiculous. Im so sick of this bullshit. The kid does whatever the fuck he wants and nothing happens but he gets drunk. Fuckin bullshit. I really dont need their stress.
Oh yeah, I figured out how Rollie found out about Tosh, one of his gas station girlfriends told him. Whatev. Still havent gotten papers, but Im sure hes seen payday at least once since that convo. Fuckin loser.
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Wow girl you have a lot going on. I’d be going crazy too. Hope you find a job soon. Buy some pizza rolls and put cat food in them or something lol. Just kidding, but damn that would piss me off too. I’m glad you have Tosh through all of this though, and how sweet is he to get you guys a room for a couple of nights. That’d make me melt too!
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hope his retarded son can turn it around… but dont get caught up in helping people that cant help themselves. they come to depend on that a little too much
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Like you need new little boyfriends. 🙂 What you need is a stinking rich long lost relative who wants you adopt… well… US! 🙂 Then you can move here and retire in style… on a yacht. That I can borrow…
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