he’s jinxing them, i know he is

O
you better not be wearing my sweatshirt 😛

Tosh
im getting ready to start the wings game
im not
but i put it on earlier went out in public and said “its a sure win tonight ” and like 4 people heard me

O
liar, lmfao

Tosh
so its over for the wings tonight

O
you’re mean
lol
my head hurts

Tosh
im sorry to hear that, dont take a darvaset
lol

O
omg, why are you being mean to me
lmfao
and i laugh

Tosh
im not being mean
im just messin

O
i must like being tortured

Tosh
yeah tortured
thats how i treat u

O
lmfao
you leave bruises 😀

Tosh
huh
ugh
….

O
lmfao

Tosh
psh

O
you do

Tosh
whatever

O
more than once

Tosh
…

O
not that i was complaining at the time

Tosh
well u r now

O
or that i really am now
cuz i can give you just as much shit as you give me

Tosh
mhmm
lol

i failed my drug test for my job. i took a darvocet last week for my kidney stone and i failed because of it. i don’t know what they’re going to do yet, but i’m hoping that they will still hire me. i don’t have a scrip for them and yeah. i’m really pissed off about that. i need this job. badly. *sigh* half a fucking pill and i’m screwed. heh, fuckers.

Tuesday nite was really rough for me. i spent most of the nite being all emo and stupid. Thank you Wally. 😉

and why for? dunno, pms i do believe. shitty as that is. i was being all stupid about Tosh, being the dumb girl. questioning stupid shit and then second guessing everything. wait, let me rephrase that, i wasn’t second guessing anything about my divorce or anything like that. i was just starting to think that maybe Tosh doesn’t feel about me the way that i feel about him. and in reality, he probably doesn’t. sucks but i think it’s the truth and i can’t make him fall for me. all i can do is be me and go with the flow. bleh. lol.

anywhore, i felt much better after extensive talks with Wally and then Megs. thanks guys, i love you both.

i even posted something on my facebook that i didn’t think anyone would take the time to decode. well, he did. he doesn’t know what it means but, damn him for trying.

i posted mostly in Cherokee “i want to be beautiful again. this butterfly is lost and lonely. i love you, blue bird. but i’ll never tell.” all he asked was “u luv a bluebird”. i didn’t play it off as well as i wanted to. bleh, whatev. even if he does think i was talking about him he wasn’t any different to me, so that’s not a bad thing.

yesterday, Tosh calls and says he’s coming over. he went down to Marley’s house to work on some music. so he gets here and i’m doing something upstairs. i come down to my bedroom and he’s laying on the bed. i was like “what’s wrong” and he proceeds to tell me that he and Marley got into a fight. creative differences are a bitch.

so he busted out his guitar and played for me. i really do love that. we joked around. went to the movie store, i made dinner. my steak still is nothing compared to his, even though he told me how good it was like 5 times. we watched my Wings loose once again. seriously, Babcock, quit playing Ozzie!, grrr.

after the game we watched Tosh.O (i fucking love that show! he laughed so hard he got a headache) and Scary Movie 2. it was pretty funny. then we just talked and watched TV.

as for him saying that he’s never in the mood and never initiates sex, he’s a fucking liar. lol.

he woke me up at 4.15 this morning almost crying. his head hurt so bad. so he drove home and i was worried about him. he said he threw up all the way home. poor guy. i hate migraines like that. i know what it’s like.

and now i need to get in the shower, there is a Tosh on his way over.

Tosh
so what u doin todsy

O
nada

Tosh
wanna hang and watch movies and be lazy with me today
cuddlin and smokin pot

O
lol, sure
i’ll do the cuddlin, but not the smoking

Tosh
k i will see you later