bleh, just bleh

so i never never check my yahoo email.  i hate yahoo mail, it’s always a crap load of spam.  anywhore, i opened my folders and there were emails from Milton and Jackson.  i miss them.  i miss them so much it hurts.

today was kinda sucky.  i was stuck home with the kids all day.  Rollie worked 1-10, so it was just me and the corns. (i call them corns because of the movie Children of the Corn)  they were good today, but they annoy me.  i’ve been home with them all week with no car because it was spring break and Rollie was working.  talk about suck.

i’m feeling pretty blah.  like i’m just ready to snap.  i need to get a job, just so i can get out of the house.  but the thing is we only have one car and we can’t really afford daycare right now.  the only saving grace is the kid’s mom paying me $200 every two weeks to watch them on the days that aren’t ours.  but she still bitches about it, psh, 200 isn’t that much and daycare is expensive.

i really think that maybe i need to be on anti depressants.  i have no passion for life, or anything.  i haven’t had a real convo with my husband in over a week, but that’s because he’s never home.  he’s always working.  i know that’s the way it works, but jeezuz i hate retail. 

i’m totally random i know. 

maybe i can get my thoughts together tomorrow while i’m home alone again with the kids, as i refuse to go to Rollie’s grandrents house without him and i’m sure as hell not going to my grandrents. 

bleh, just bleh.