Sixteen: I Have the Strength Now
Sixteen
I created a simple layout for my entries. The other one was getting old and repeating. I didn’t make the old one but I did this one. If any of you ever want a layout for your entries, just ask and I’ll make ya one. :-D.
Anyways, day one of my fasting is here. So far, I haven’t had anything but water. I plan on living on this for a few days.
I had therapy yesterday. I hate to say it but she’s so scattered brained and just keeps giving me all these papers to read one-on-one. I had to take an “Eating Disorder Inventory 2” assessment, and she’s now scoring it to see if I have anorexia restrictive or anorexia binge/purge. I am not anxious to get the results back. She is also still pushing me to go to that Bluegrass Nutrition Counseling place in Lexington, KY. I am very nervous to go there and I don’t think I’ll agree to it.
My starting weight is 115. By the end of December, I want that scale to say 99. I don’t think that it is too extreme because I have lost more weight than that in a month. I do plan on keeping it off this time.
The reason I gained so much weight in the first place is because when I moved in with my boy-friend, he monitored what I ate. To save an argument, I began to eat. It’s that simple. *Sighs* BUT now since moving out of his grandmothers house two years ago, I realized it will be easy for me to do this again.
Wish me luck and thanks for the support everyone!
Sincerely
Katrina
Aww thank you and yes a poetry book. I’ve been wanting to do this for a long time I was just holding off because of costs and such.
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There is something about winter that always makes me want to lose weight, and wrap myself around a blanket of cold. I’ve wondered how anorexia would affect the person I was in a relationship with, were I in a relationship with someone, and how it would affect me. You should get help. I should get help. We should all get help.
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Take care of yourself, lovely. <3 And I don’t get counselors sometimes. They often seem like they don’t know what they’re doing or they have no structure for the session. RYN: Thank you. I’ve slipped a bit today and the whole process is scaring me, but I’m gonna keep trying.
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you definately have as much support as you need from me as you need. i hope things go well and you take care of yourself. im always around as usual. one ladder rung at a time katrina.
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good luck and love the new layout!! <3
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You are going to make yourself very ill if all you drink is water for days on end. I think you ought to get help. In the past, when I wouldn`t eat for days, I felt so horrible and it sucked. Now, I eat every day and walk everywhere; it`s a lot better; and, the other day I weighed myself, I was about 45kg {99lbs}. Anyway, good luck with your weight loss =)
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hugs i know the feeling of eating to please others – it wont work, you need to do it for yourself….
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ryn- thanks, as an English major that’s good to hear 🙂 stay healthy, and do you have an option to shop around for therapists? out of my half-dozen experiences, only one has been useful.
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Found it lol
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