Minor rant and update.

First off, that pup we found. The owner showed up, thankfully. Turns out the pup lives just down the road. so at least now I recognize it and what not. 

SaltyBet.com  is my current addiction. If you don’t know what it is and you are a nerd that enjoys fighting games and betting…get your ass on saltybet.  What is saltybet you ask?  It is a twitch that streams constant mugen with like over a thousand characters and allows you to bet salty bucks on the fights. You make an account and start with 400….it’s fun as shit and some of the characters are just ridiculous, but that’s what makes Mugen so awesome. Mugen is just a fighting game type deal with more customization. I’m addicted. I wake up and hop on saltybet and have that going while i do shit. even if you dont want to bet…its entertaining watching the matches. yes I am a nerd…deal with it.

Playing Backbreaker alot too…fuck the people that hate this game…its the only creative football game out there really. 

Working on getting my steam trading cards. crafted a portal 2, left 4 dead 2, and bioshock infinite badges last night/this morning. Valve rules. Left 4 Dead 3 is basically confirmed for the next source engine…so WOOT  but still Where the fuck is Half Life 3? 

Alright….shall I rant now? I think I shall. 

My sister. That’s the topic of my rant.

Recap: Her hubby is a drug addict. did stupid shit, she moved out and a bunch shit was supposed to happen. He was supposed to go to rehab or some shit like that. That hasn’t happened yet, and probably wont because my sister has pretty much moved back in. So, in order for her to move in to this house…I had to bust my ass to get everything rearranged and situated to make room, and then i had to move all her furniture and shit…again..because I had to move them out of their apartment. Because I totally volunteered for all of that…oh wait no I didn’t.

Anyway, so after allll the shit I had to do, and all the responsibility that got thrust onto my shoulders because of her marital issues, and the sacrifice of taking time off from school to help the family handle it and try to help financially where I could…she’s basically moved back in with him and he is still a drug addict, and most likely isnt going to rehab at all. So yeah, Im soooo fucking nice to do all this shit for family and what not, and yet I’m VERY unappreciated. So after alll the shit I’ve done, helped with, sacrificed etc etc…It was basically all for nothing. Wooo…awesome.  Also, now dont get me wrong theirs time in peoples’ lives where trying drugs and shit is semi-acceptable, but when you are married and have a kid its time to grow the fuck up.  

Now not only is she pretty much moved back in…but her birthday was on sunday, and I showed her how to do a computer thing as a gift. As if I haven’t already done more than enough to not have to do or get anything for her. But, she has the fucking NERVE to bitch for an entire fucking week about not getting anything..Bitch you are 25…why are you bitching about not getting any gifts or money for your fucking birthday?  Our parents bought you and your dipshit husband a car, and paid for your entire wedding, and have done the majority of the moving of YOUR SHIT, and have helped you insurmountably with your child, and the list of what we have done for you is ridiculously longer than the list of what youve done for us. And you bitch sooo fucking much over not getting anything on your bday…to the point that my parents give in and say ok well take you on a little shopping spree for your birthday…-_-  are you fucking kidding me? 

I’m 21….I haven’t gotten any gifts for my bday in 2 or 3 years…And I just shrugged it off. Do you know what I got on my 21st bday? nada….and the 21st is supposed to be 1 where you actually get to celebrate. you wanna know what I had to drink 1 beer. And beer tastes like shit…Do you know what I got on my 18th birthday?  My sister got a car. My 20th? I got to drop out of school because my sister married a drug addict.  You know what I did, I bought 2 cheap cars to kinda fix up. One is sitting in the yard, broken down, and 1 I’ve basically given to my mother and it also broke down. Wanna guess how many hours I’ve babysat for free instead of actually getting a real job? I lost count. Wanna know how many hours I’ve spent dealing with their tech issues? I’ve lost count there too. Wanna know how often I ask for something when I’m short on cash? I haven’t asked for anything in like 2 years.  The only time I ask for something is if its a ride, or to use the card and I give them cash. I don’t ask for anything unless I am at the very least able to contribute significantly. I paid for half of my phone. Sister never contributed to anything that was gotten for her. I paid half of my tv as a bday present a few years back. I paid for 2 cars with MY money…wanna know how many miles ive driven in them…maybe 5. I dont even have my license because anytime I want to go deal with it…they say maybe next time im off…and ya know what they do…SIT ON THEIR GOD DAMNED ASSES ALLLLLL FUCKING DAY! I’m just saying…I have done so much for this family, and sacrificed shit, and put the weight of their shit on my shoulders and handled, and contributed to help everything…while my sibling does jack shit, and gets fucking handed everything. It’s ridiculous…Not to mention that while I handle all this shit of theirs…I get blamed for shit that I had nothing to do with as well…I’m basically the scapegoat…and I still handle all the shit that gets thrown at me…Starting to feel pretty god damn unappreciated. Especially considering my sister bitches about not getting shit for her bday, whens shes 25 and I havent gotten shit in years, and I’ve sacrificed so much of my shit (by choice or not) to benefit her and/or my parents. And here I am…being patient, and waiting for it to be my fucking turn. 

Just saying guys….It;s ridiculous and I deserve a lot better. 

Oh and last night/this evening…depending on how you consider it…I talked to 2 different people. 1 we talked a bit, because she did something stupid in talking and hanging out with someone she cares for a lot but knows he treats her like shit, so I kinda cheered her up and explained how we all have our own personal kryptonites. I realized that I know damn sure who my kryptonite is, but I am definitely in control of it now. Do i still care about that person…oh hell yeah…but no matter what happens in the future…Idk if I just dont care or what not but, I dont think it will phase me too much.  Talking to the other person a bit…just talking..nothing specific…I realized that I really dont have much faith in people anymore. I’m kinda used to being let down to the point that I expect it, so I dont get my hopes up that someone would come through for me, so I sort of depend on myself. Idk what that means, if anything…but I really just am rocking it solo…and not really leaning on anyone, or expecting anything from anyone because I know I got it. lol 

Idk what else to write about so…dueces bitches.  If you have steam cards you dont want..GIMME!!!

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