Briefly

Hmm.. still alive and well and so are my family. The wedding, as of this moment, is still on. I guess we’re not getting many guests from abroad.

The number of people killed by rockets everyday has officialy risen over the number of people killed in car accidents. No longer can you say "never mind, you have more of a chance to get hit by a car crossing the street".

I am bummed because of (in no particular order): The rockets, the war in general, the future that will probably grow out of this war, the dead people on our side, the dead people on their side, the stupidity of our leaders, the stupidity of their leaders, the fact that I still have 10 pounds to loose for the wedding and only 3 weeks to go (which means I won’t make it), I miss my parent’s house and want to hang out there, working too hard, not getting enought done, the fact that i will probably never drive to Europe through Lebanon, the fact that if I want to go visit the place where Nir proposed to me, i will have to dodge the bombs that fell but never blew up.

It seems so weird to me that I was unhappy the week before this war started, about silly things like my makeup and the invitations. It seems like if the war ends everything will be wonderful. It’s so weird, people have such a capacity to feel just bah, never mind what really haapens. I should have been so happy a month ago. Now I’m sure that if everything ends by the time of the wedding, i’ll be ecstatic. But will I?

And before that, I thought that if I ever find a guy to marry, i’ll never have another sad day in my life…

Have to go back to work now.. just wanted to let you know I’m okay.