How awful would it be

If everything were erased?

I wonder if I say not so much, if it means that i don’t like my life enough. Or maybe that I feel that the best is still ahead of me? I wonder about that. I really wonder.

Time: 17:44

Mood: I’m too busy. I’m late for everything and letting everyone down. I left ice-cream in the car – it cost a ton and it’s probably making a huge stain as we speak.

Boy: Dating a guy with a nice name. However, I’m not really attracted to him. We’ve been out twice. I hope i will change my mind but i doubt it. It’s rare for me to be in this place. I thought it would feel better than getting your heart broken, but it doesn’t. Becuase if you are in love, you think – if the other side suddenly changes his mind, everything will be perfect. This way – you know it won’t change. You know it’s a lie.

Writing About: High tech companies.

Daily philosophical approach / deep thought: I never remeber these by the time I’m at the comp…

Nice thing that happened: I’m throwing a party tomorrow. Seems like some people may actually be arriving! Oh. and someone seems to want to love me..

Interesting thing that happened: New years dinner with my family. My parents and brother are abroad so it was just me and my uncle-aunt family. My aunt said my uncle was dying to talk to me. It’s because i write in the paper. Before that he didn’t care… I wanted to bring a salad. How did that happen? I seem to be an adult.

I made a new email account. I’ll try to give it to you in codes, so the spammeers don’t get to it. it goes Dew_OD first. Then there’s the strudel. Did you know that they call it a strudel in Hebrew? The one above the 2. Then it says “walla”. That’s a big website in israel, and they give a giga of space, just like google does! and it ends with a dot com.

try it.