unreliable.

For the last two years I have found myself in several different jobs.  I have this issue where I can’t sit still.  It alternates between my career and my personal life.  When I’m set on a man, I change jobs.  When I’m set on a job, I change men.

That wasn’t entirely true.  But I haven’t had caffeine yet today.  Forgiveness!

The bank decided that given the terrible availability of jobs that actually interest me for a long period of time, I am not eligible to borrow their money.  Fuckers.  Because I haven’t been in my job for 2 years, I’m "unreliable".  I knew my inability to sit still would catch up with me one day.

So we’re looking for alternate routes to a mortgage.  Should be infuriatingly time consuming and unbelievably boring.  SOMEONE GIVE ME MONEY SO I CAN LIVE IN A CONDO AND GET AWAY FROM MY MOTHER!!!

I love my mother.  You shut up.

So that basically made up my mind to stick to my guns and this job.  I’m actually getting comfortable here.  Besides the fact that I sit across from a bright yellow wall that assaults my eyes all day and the only window is one skylight about twenty feet that way, It’s pretty comfortable.

Tried to relax and take a bath last night.  My whole body has been sore since I slept in my horrible torture chamber called my bed all week.  I’ve slept terribly and I’m tired and grumpy all day cause my bed is wildly uncomfortable.  I need a new mattress, but that means I need a thousand dollars.  Kills me!  Kill me!

Nellie told me last night she can’t afford to move out.  She cut me off with that as I was about to offer some meager attempt at an excuse to mask that I don’t want her to move in.  Lady knows.  So we went about having a perfectly lovely dinner.  We’re content to enjoy evenings out and call it best friendship.  So that’s comforting.  On the minus side, I’m now down to one potential roomie instead of the 3 I had previously.  Gotta bother him today to move to town and give me his money.

The president of the company just walked by me.  "Morning".  Yeesh.  I wish I had a door so noone could sneak up on me while I’m writing no work related words and offer pleasantries.  On the other hand I think he got new glasses.  So that’s nice.