Extremes and contradictions..

Well.. Here I am again.. returned from my travels in Asia.. Yes hard 2 believe that my 3 weeks in the Philippines are over..

The truth about my visit is that its confusing and bewildering and a million things inbetween.. The whole time there was over shadowed by a relationship problem.. not mine but anothers.. and that kinda put a twist on our relationship.. Flossey and I chatted all the time about the other couple.. and even when we tried not 2 it kept coming around to the same topic..

I won’t dwell on it here as it kinda anoyed me.. but at the same time.. I hope that in some way I was able to help.. relationships hinge on communication.. and I don’t feel that pride should have a place in a relationship.. honesty and openess is really the key.. of course an altar as well.. where does marriage begin??? At an altar.. well we cannot hope 2 live successful if we leave that altar out of the rest of our marriages.. geesh i wish i was married.. lol lol lol

Anyhoo…

The whole trip taught me valuable lessons about honesty and being genuine.. the Philippinos who i met were very respectful and nice to me.. nicer 2 me than I deserve… they treated me like i was a movie star or something.. I had the song.. ‘who am I?’ by Casting Crowns..going through my head..  people would stop in mid sentence or mid stride or look up from their sorrows when we came into the room… sure it was largely.. ‘oh look white people..’ but they would follow us around and star at us and well focus on us.. and i couldn’t hekp but think over and over.. who am I?? why me??? I’m no different….

But there was nothing we could do 2 change the way people behaved 2ward us..

I spent a bit of time with the kids in the recovery unit.. just being a big brother…

Truth be told..

I believe that every man has the responsibility to be a father figure to the orphan and I guess to every child.. to set an example of love and kindness and discipline where necessary.. so I had no problem playing with the kinds in the unit.. just throwing them over my shoulder and having pillow fights and just being there with them.. it was pure if that makes sense..

I’m waxing esoteric or something.. hehe

But wen life is on the edge and boiled down it is basic emotion and intentions and actions that count.. I think that is the best lessoon that I took away from the Philippines…

I’ll probably realise something more later.. lol

~Dreamer~