Future visions and dreams to come..

Wot do I mean by using such a title as that?? Well I don’t know..

I’m sitting in my room contemplating the future and tomorrows ‘things’.. I am excited and kinda worried.. although maybe not so much worried as concerned I’ll blow it.. But wot sort of a way is that to live your life?? To be honest all we can do is our best and trust God.. I have found new strength over the last few weeks.. renewed enthuasium and drive..

Its funny in a way.. i can remember when my nites were filled with visions of terror and fear.. where I constantly was harrassed by imaginations and implications.. I had made darkness my abode and the place my soul ran to when given the chance.. but now I have crossed over into the Kingdom of Light and it seems like a life time ago since i once wore the funeral clothes of dead and dying dreams..

Why the change? Is it just because I am in love? is it just because I’m ‘maturer’? is it just because I think a little differently?? wot is the reason?? Well the truth is that I don’t know..

But then again..

Maybe I do know.. maybe I have seen enough battles and fallen friends.. maybe you get to the point where U have to stop lamenting the loss and move on and embrace the replacements… everything is a big circle in many ways.. things come along and they push other things out and replace them.. then something else comes along and it in turn pushes out something valuable.. and so on and so forth..

The truth is that I have learnt alot.. maybe the gloom will return.. but I doubt it..

For sure the rain will come again.. but I can’t worry about that.. I can’t allow tomorrow’s evils to steal from todays joy.. I can readily borrow from tomorrow’s evils but not from tomorrows answers..

So I will march on..

I will allow my past to be assimilated into my today but not let it hinder my future.. and indoing so I will get over it.. I will accept it and move on towards my destiny.. my future.. my life..

~Dreamer~