Kind of Numb

Working my last second shift for the rotation. And all I want to do is go home and go to bed. I have to drive 2 hours to Columbus for a training class tomorrow and then back home. My day off is shot. But I am off Thursday, and hopeful to get some housework done and laundry. Oh boy.

I took mom to her first appointment today with the surgeon. He confirmed that she has a mass in her left breast and that it was most likely to be cancer. Odds of it being benign are slim. But she now will have a biopsy and then the removal will take place. They will also be removing some of the lymph nodes to see of there is any cancer present there. She seems to be dealing with this pretty well. I am not sure if she understands what may lie ahead. Maybe I am just more fearful than I need to be. Not sure at this point.

My brother does not know yet of the finding and I guess I will go by the farm tomorrow night and talk with him about what is going on. He doesn’t really handle stress real well when it comes to these types of issues.

As for me, I passed on buying the motorcycle I was looking at. Something in me said not now. And for the time being, I am okay with it. I bought my 1987 Mustang convertible 2 years ago, and when I feel the need for the wind in my face, I’ll hop in it and take a ride. Maybe this winter I can get it painted and replace the door and window mouldings that need replaced. I have spent very little on it since I bought it, so I guess that is where I will look to spend my energy.

I have a quick trip to Florida planned for next week, but it will be put on hold. I really wanted to get away and get some beach time, but there will be plenty of time in the months to come. Well one more hour to go and I’m outta here. Blessing everyone…