Thank you!

Thank You, Thank You, to all of those that offered suggestions. I feel like I am finally back where I want to be. I tried for several days to write an entry, but could only enter a title. That was really frustrating. Your notes were the best news that I got today.

I have so much to tell and don’t know where to start. It has been a long time, but I finally am starting to feel like I am alive again. It is the worst feeling in the world when you feel like you have lost yourself. It all started 5 years ago when I suffered a fall here at work and fractured my skull and injured my brain. (Yeah, they did find one between my ears.) I started experiencing vision problems and was told that everything that I loved to do, must stop. So I did nothing but work my full time job, and fall deeper into the depression that I had always suffered. Add some serious drinking to that and you can imagine the hole that I fell deep into. I spiraled to the bottom of the pit and hit the bottem.

The only way to recover from this is to claw your own way back out of the hole. It has been a long hard crawl, but I am finally starting to succeed. And I owe it all to God’s grace and surrounding myself with good people. That also brings me back to a place where I can sit down and freely write about what I’m feeling. And I look forward to finally taking my life back and moving on.

Depression is a nasty disease and add severe head injury only makes things worse. Now that is enough of my self explanation, from here on I will move forward. Thank you to all those that have read my life and have encouraged me to get back to business at OD.

And to make my day that much better, I just answered a 911 call that asked me if I was in need of dental insurance? Really, shouldn’t 911 lines not have to be subject to telemarketer calls. Some days I can’t believe what happens in 911 land.

I will ask for prayers for my mom, who was found to have a small lump in her breast at 80 years of age. I turned it all over to God when I got off the phone with her today. I will trust Him and his healing power to get our family thru whatever. Mom has never really had any type of illness and this is something she just doesn’t comprehend. But her spirits are not dampened, because she still had plans to go out dancing tonite. Go Mom.