A Sad Farewell

My dance classes are soon to be over.  I had a fun run while they lasted, but in truth, I’m not making enough money to be worth it.  They’re going to interfear with my ability to take dance classes with other instructors.  In the end, I just don’t like teaching that much.  I just feel bad that I’m going to be giving up, but I feel like I’m doing a better thing for myself in all of this.

See, here’s the deal, I don’t like drama.  I don’t like stress.  I don’t like conflict.  I think the world would be a better place if we just worked everything out and didn’t need to have any of that drama, conflict, agression stuff.  I stepped out of my comfort zone to teach and now it seems that the time has come to let it go, and all the drama that comes with it.

Things have been awkward for far too long.  I know I’m making everyone happy who wished to see me fail, but in truth, I’m starting to lose my sense of fun.  Dance is supposed to be about enjoyment and I just don’t enjoy teaching.  It’s becoming time to withdraw again.  I don’t want to lose dance all together this time, so it’s time to just cut out those things that aren’t working for me.  Right now, I’m cutting the whole professional thing out.  I am once again going to be a hobbiest.  I’m just going to have fun with it.

I’m just done with the drama.  I’m done with being in the middle of that mess.  It is a mess.  That’s what happens whenever there’s drama.  It turns into a mess and someone gets hurt.  Well, maybe if I’m not getting hurt, frustrated, or upset, then they’ll move on.  Either way, I just don’t care anymore.  I’ve got my community out of it and that’s what I need.

That’s what it comes down to, really.  I’ve gotten what I need out of this.  It’s time to move on.  It is a positive thing to realize when something’s time has passed.  It is a positive thing to move on from that  to something else.  That’s what I’m doing.

And sure, all the people around here who dislike me, they win.  So what?  Who cares?  How can they really win if I’m not playing?  Sure, they’ll have their victory, but in truth, I know the only way to win is not to play at all.  I’m doing this because it makes me happy, so why play the games?  Happiness doesn’t come from games or politics.  Happiness comes from doing something you love.  I love this, so I’m going to keep doing it, no matter what silly, bitter, painful little politics they throw my way.  After all, they can take away every dance venue in the world…except for the sanctity of my home.  Doing anything that would prevent me from ever dancing again would be illegal, and I don’t see them as having reason to stoop that low.  Besides, they just want me out of their way.

Whatever.  I’m done caring.  It’s like circle.  I walked away and I feel so much better for it.  I know I can’t just walk away from everything, but in this case, it’s not a necessity.  It’s a positive thing.  Therefore, I’m done!

So wish me luck in whatever future ventures come my way, may they be plentiful.

~*~Raven Night~*~