Utterly Exhausted

I think I may have caught whatever Brittany had.  Of course, it’s entirely possible that it’s also the lack of sleep.  It’s been a long day.  I just can’t wait for it to be over.

After getting next to no sleep, I got up at the crack of dawn this morning.  I packed the kids in the car and at 0400 this morning, we dropped Caelan off to his formation.  It was EARLY!  We drove back home and all dropped back into a blissful sleep.

Well, that’s what I would have liked anyway.  First I couldn’t sleep.  Then once I did get to sleep, I kept waking up.  All too early Corde woke me up asking about her video game.  She wanted to play.  I wanted her to go back to bed.  I was exhausted.  However, I got up and trudged along.

The day went along pretty usually.  In truth, it was rather dull and quiet.  The rain came and we had a bit of a storm, but as usual, it was all over much too quickly.  I curled up in my little bal lon the chair and watched a movie, and now I don’t know what to do.  Tribe is down for maintenance.  I can’t access my gmail.  It’s just not a happy state to be.

To top it all off, my head has been pounding all day.  My throat has been hurting.  I was thinking it might be a low grade fever, but in truth I think I’m just exhausted.  I’m ready  to call it a day and it’s not even 1700!  I still have so much to do today, but I’m so blasted exhausted.  I feel like I just want to go upstairs and go to sleep!

But I can’t…

In an hour I need to be at my FRG meeting.  In a little over a half hour, I need to pack the kids in the car and drop them off at a friend’s house.  In that time, I’d still like to hit up the piercer and get her to change my earrings out for the new ones.  I can’t bring the kids in for that one, so this could get interesting.  I’m going to have to cruise from one place to the next.  I may just cut out the stop at the piercer’s.  We’ll see what happens.

I would just not go to the FRG meeting, but that’s what I did at the last one.  I just decided I couldn’t do it.  I figured I’d go to the next one and that would be that.  Now I’m just too tired.  It’s my own fault too.  I should have gotten more sleep.  However, once I’m there and get all of this done, I should be fine.  I know I want to go to this.  It’s not that I’m just talking mself up.  I really do want to go.  I’ve just made myself so nervous.

Well, that’s the retreat.  I guess that means I should get my butt in gear.  I want to have both the kids dressed and ready so I can just fly when Gina says she’s home to take them.  I’m not going to be working with a lot of time here.  I really hope I can get it all fit in, at least getting to the FRG meeting on time.  I’ll live without the earrings, but I want to be on time for once.

~*~Raven Night~*~

1) i got the new teal earrings.  I love them.  They’re smaller than I was given the impression they would be.  That’s okay.  I still like them.  I just wasn’t expecting them t be so small.  It’s probably better that way.

2) FRG meeting tonight…  I’m excited, but nervous.  I really do hope they like me.

3) Day one of Caelan being away is almost over.  I know it’s silly to be celebrating over a week when it’s been far longer than that before, but I just want him home…  He’ll be leaving for deployment too soon.

4) Chad is coming to visit soon!  He’s going to call me from the airport when he gets in.  I can’t wait to see him again!  I can’t believe how much I’ve missed him, nor that the time has passed so quickly.

5) We got rain today.  That made all the difference.

6) I’m a good part of the way done with my new choli.  It’ll be ready before I even know it!

7) I ordered the stuff to make the Waldorf kinder-doll for Corde.  It’s going to have blue eyes and brown hair, just like hers.  I hope she likes it.  I can’t wait for it to get here.

8) I haven’t seen Annie in the last week or two.  I think I actually feel better for it.  I never thought I’d be saying that.

9) I’m finally at a place in my life where I’ve got people I can really talk to.  It’s a beautiful thing.

10) I think I’m finally starting to heal.  The pain from the past doesn’t sting nearly as bitterly as it used to.  I’m growing up and moving on.  I’m not so damaged anymore.  That realization has been a long time in coming.