Etenral nothing

So, He’s gone. Ari lett. For a long time i always said "Ari’s leaving me," but he was leaving here. There is a difference.

And that other boy called.

And emelye is back. Sad, musing, fun, lustful, worried, ugly, intelligent, irresponsoble, old emelye has been reborn. Even my friends say things are new.

But what’s new is old.

i am single again. Kind of lonely. But i am feeling better about myself. And maybe, just maybe the new boy will wan to try this whole thing out.

But two years cannot be overlooked. i loved someone for two years, and now he’s driven off into the sunset like so many rolling stones. Two years where he was there for the worst of times and the best, and now all those times are but memories. It is like death. Nothing new for us.

But maybe for me. And for him.

Just not for us.