Crazy Happenings…kids..house..and such!

I have sat down a couple of different times to write and entry and always get interrupted. I’m surviving. It has been a hectic last couple of weeks, but I think I have it under control now. It’s been INSANE trying to adjust to staying home with the kids and then throw in watching my cousins kids and my little brother. So I have my two kids everyday, pick my brother up from school everyday, and have my cousins kids Tuesdays and Thursdays, which I have to pick the one of up from kindergarten. So…my week ranges from having a 1 year old and a 4 year old everyday…my 7 year old brother from about 2:30 to 6:30. Then on Tuesdays and Thursdays add a 2 year old at about 7 in the morning, pick his 5 year old brother up at 11:20 and have them til about 6:30ish. Tomorrow I will have all of them and throw in my cousins 8 year old too because they are out of school for teacher in service thing. It’s going to be crazy.
The most relaxing part about it is the past 2 days I took completely and totally going through our house. Each and every room has been cleaned and cleaned good…it’s been crazy work but it feels go to finally have it done. We had our yard sale a couple of weeks ago and got rid of a lot of stuff. The rest we just hauled off and donated. I still have a lot I need to sort through again just because I feel like I’m holding onto stuff I just don’t need, but can’t find a reason to let go of it.
I had a bit of a push to get the house cleaned though, and though I am thankful for the extra motivation, I’m not sure I am happy about the reason. Our landlord came to us last week and talked to us about buying the house, which I told him that neither one of us were in a situation credit wise to get financed. So he mentions how we could work out a rent to own type deal and I was so excited. I told him I love the area, I love the schools, and we really want to stay here and don’t plan on moving anytime soon. When he left I felt we were at an understanding that I would talk to K and by the next week we could start moving forward. The next day he shows up while I was gone and talks to K and goes ahead and runs his credit(we had agreed we would try it just to see) and finds out exactly what I told him. Then never even mentions a rent to town deal to K. THEN the day before yesterday I get a call from the property management place we actually pay our rent to and she’s telling me that he has someone that has put an offer on the house and they want to come see it and blah blah blah…I’m like..what???? So I called her back told her about the conversations we have had with him and she could tell I was totally blown away. She had no clue we had talked to him, not to mention the conversation about the rent to own deal. So she says she will call him and talk to him. I never heard back from her, but yesterday he stopped by again, tells us not to panic that these people just want to take a look and blah blah blah…I’m like…well why..I thought we had told you we were interested, we want the house…but what happened to rent to own. He keeps kind of avoiding that saying that maybe my dad can do something in the next month(he lives here and is totally interested in buying, but same situation (long story short he still has a house in his name from his ex wife, they have been separated for 3 years divorced now for about 1, but she still lives in the house that’s in his name..her name is nowhere on it…it’s supposed to be settled by the end of the month but he’s afraid his credit is ruined based on the payments she has/hasn’t been making)….anyways…so my opinion I think he’s just trying to keep us happy, and feeding us full of crap so if the people that want to look at the house decide against it…we don’t just move out and leave him hanging….BUT I feel that he’s still leading them on so that if they do decide to buy he can just get out of owning this house (which the property management place told me that was his intentions…he just wants to get rid of the house). So..to shorten this story a little bit they came by at 2 today to look at the house, which was the reason for my house being totally and completely spotless…it is nice to just sit and relax and not feel so tense and thinking I should be doing a million things. Definitely a weight off my shoulders…except for the deal with the landlord.
We found a house we are going to go look at on Friday. Just in case, if that one works out then we might just take it anyways. It’s a little bit cheaper, same size, minus one bathroom, but has a garage, more property and is a little bit closer to K’s work. BUT…the distance would put a damper on my babysitting gig because my cousin or my mom would be stupid to drive that distance to bring me their kids lol. So I dunno we have some decision making to do and I’m just not sure which way to go. I just don’t want to be in a place that..especially with Mason starting school next year, that we are just going to have to pick up and move. Once he’s in school I want it to be stable so he’s not bouncing around all the time.
Lately, I think all the stress and tension has been getting the best of K and I. We really haven’t been getting a long the best. I have a lot of issues with our past…that deal with trust…and I just get really insecure sometimes, which is totally not like me…until I met him. I just love him so much and I know without a doubt he is the love of my life and I want to be with him, but sometimes I think I get so scared of losing him, that I push him away. Someday I will go more into detail about our past, but now is not the time…I just sometimes feel like he doesn’t understand how I feel at all..but he is a guy…so go figure LOL.
Well, hope everyone is doing well, just wanted to stop in and give a quick update!