Long Time Coming…Update!

 

I’ve definitely been slacking.  Things have just been crazy.  Hopefully I’ll get back into this more.  I just need to vent right now. 

Just to quickly update.  I am completely and totally single.  Travis and I got back together and moved in together.  We’re renting a house and things…I thought…were going great.  Until I found out he lied…yet again…and I couldn’t take it anymore.  We tried the roomate situation for a while and that was a nightmare….so I now currently live in a 4 bed 2 bath house….with room for my horse and my dog of course lol…but am stuck with a 900 a month rent payment.  I’m actually looking into purchasing the house in hopes to bring that down a little.  Anyways..it’s tough but I think I can handle it. 

The new guy…his name is Hank..and he’s absolutely perfect.  I can’t find a single flaw.  I know it’s only been a little over two weeks but we’ve spent everday together since the night we met.  I actually met him at a bar…and he doesn’t even drink lol.  It was Saturday the 17th and we’d all gone out to celebrate an early birthday for my friend Lindsay and my friend Brandy was in town so there was a whole ton of us there…and the minute I seen him I was telling my friensd how hot I thought he was…and…he is lol.  Even being intoxicated I didn’t have the nerve to talk to him..and he kept asking one of my friends friends to dance and it was driving me crazy…so as the bar was closing…we’d been making eye contact all night but I was too chicken..so one of my other friends..Kali..came to pick up my friend Hidy and they happened to know Hank’s brother…so they were talking and all talking about going out and getting breakfast…they didn’t act like they were going to go…but as they walked away I said damnit that guy is so hot and Kali overheard me and she’s like which one…so I told her and she went and talked to his brother and brought Hank over to me and introduced me…I felt like a complete idiot but was so thankful at the same time…so he got my number and stuff and he was driving so he told me they would go have breakfast so I’m like sweet….I wasn’t driving my friend Gene was so I made sure it was okay with him and we went to the truck stop to have breakfast.  Kali made sure me and Hank sat by eachother…..we talked..a lot just got to know eachother..and I couldn’t help but stare…he has the most gorgeous brown eyes….anyways..I got his number and after sitting there talking for an hour or better we all left….and I immediately started drunk texting…DORK!  lol I just told him to not be a stranger and that I enjoyed talking to him and not to mention he was way cute too!  Again…DORK!  He said he wouldn’t and asked if I liked movies and asked me to a movie the next day…anyways..long story short we went to a movie that sunday and that sunday night he came over and we watched movies…and seriously..as cheesey as it sounds..the first time we kissed..there was total fireworks!!!  We’ve seen eachother everday and…things are really great…we get a long…communication is great…just one issue….

He was actually suppose to be married the Friday before we met..and his ex broke it off just before saying she wasn’t mature enough to be married..which he’s thankful she did it before rather than after they actually went through with it…but…it’s left him heartbroken to say the least…and definitely hesitant to jump back into another serious relationship..which is completely and totally understandable…I really don’t need to be jumping so soon either….but I’m totally confused by the whole situation….he comes over all the time…we do everything together…act like we’re dating…but everytime it seems like it’s getting too serious he gives me the talk about how he doesn’t want to lead me on and it’s way too soon for him to be getting into a serious relationship….but then will kiss me..or something that totally contradicts what he just told me.  I asked him at one point if he wanted it to stop or just slow way down and he told me that he doesn’t want it to stop…so I’m just like..what the crap lol.  This weekend I went to lunch and a movie with him, his brother, and his other brothers daughter…and I took Mason and it was fun…but…meeting his family?  Getting a little serious..isn’t it?  I dunno just needed to vent. 

There’s a quick update..I’m sure there will be more to come. 

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