Loooooong Time!

So, it’s been a while lol.  I usually update my myspace blog but even that hasn’t been updated much.  It’s been an odd last couple of months.  Travis and I broke up….for a few months.  I don’t really know why, but it was almost like we hated eachother there for a while.  He did the one thing to me that I just can’t handle and that was lie.  It was nothing major but it still hurt.  Long story short we got back together a couple weeks ago and things are great.  I’m a little stand offish sometimes because I’m scared.  I think that was my problem before and why I pushed him away.  I love him, I really do, but I just…the way I feel..committing to him…scares me even though i know its what I want.  He’s so good with Mason and..he’s perfect. 

Anyways..about Mason.  He turned a year old last week.  I can’t believe how big he is getting.  He’s an expert at crawling now, he’s pulling himself up against things and will stand from sitting on his own.  He’s walking he’ll take about 5-10 steps and then decide crawling is easier lol.  He says mamma dadda babba nono and byebye.  He’ll wave and used to give kisses but decided hes tired of that lol.  He doesn’t know his dad.  I gave up on that.  As far as Mason is concerned Travis is his dad.  His dad wouldn’t even come to his birthday party!  He is paying $440 a month in child support..and is suppose to pay half the daycare but I’ve been way too easy on him about that.  I don’t even care anymore I’m just sick and tired of worrying about it. 

Anyways I’m at work..LOVING my job.  Money is awesome…

I’m hoping to have a new car tomorrow..maybe even tonight..it’s a 2008 Pontiac G6 GT white..which I usually hate white but I love this car..totally loaded sunroof, 6 disc cd player…LOVE IT! 

Anyways..gotta get to work.