5 Star Week

Blah, i’ve caught a cold and it’s kicking my ass.  Hopefully I get over it before this weekend because Sunday is my 22nd birthday and Saturday I am thinking I might want to go out and party.  Haven’t decided yet because I really don’t have anyone to go party with.  I mean sure I’ll get there and have my ‘bar friends’ but I’d much rather spend my birthday with some real friends. 
This past year or so I have spent a lot of time at the bar.  There for a while it was every night of the week.  Not always getting drunk, but hanging out, playing pool and bullshittin.  I met a lot of people, not many i consider true friends, well a couple that I did, but they turned around and proved me wrong.  The one guy I admired and loved (as a friend and at one point maybe more) so much.  He was older…and I looked up to him in so many ways.  Then he let me down in so many ways so many times that it hurt.  It still does because I can’t believe I thought so much of him and he did that to me.  I know deep down he is a good friend and a good guy, I believe everyone is, and that is my downfall I see the best in everyone and I ignore the negative.  Anyways, I usually go weeks now without stepping foot in a bar.  Stopped in last Friday and it reminded me how much I hate it.  Lastnight I stopped and it wasn’t bad hardly any people in there and just sat and relaxed and had a couple beers.
Wednesday at work was a good day.  It was the shipping managers birthday so me and one of the other girls bought her some baloons and a cake and I think it made her day.  Then the supervisor finally pulled me aside and asked me if I was interested in a permanent job and if he hired me on if I’d just turn around and leave in 6 months and I told him no that I really liked it there and wanted to stick around!  Talk about make my day!  Huge relief because I didn’t know if I was going to have to start looking for another job anytime soon or what.  Without the title I"ll basically be the assistant shipping manager.  I’m hoping it involves a pay raise but he didn’t really say.  I do know that getting hired on permanent the benefits are awesome. 
This weekend I’m thinking I need to move out of Jers house.  He hasn’t exactly said I need to, but I sense a little tension between us and it’s making me uncomfortable.  Plus I’m really starting ot like him and we’ve both agreed nothing could ever happen between us so I need to get out now.  His kids are really gonna hate it, but I gotta do it.  I have already mentioned it to them and they weren’t thrilled, but hopefully if I explain it to them they will understand.  I got home lastnight and they were here after having 2 nights without them I had been able to talk to Jer and he’s got a lot going on in his life and I know he’s stressed and I know that is where a lot of the tension is coming from.  The kids were sound asleep, one on the couch and one in the chair.  He, for some reason was wide awake on the air mattress on the floor.  I went and laid down by him and he’d been sick and wasn’t feeling all that great…and he’d had a bad day.  One of his ex’s has been calling and texting nonstop because he has some of her stuff still.  So as soon as I get off here I’m gonna get it gathered up for him like he asked so he can take it to her and in his words "get her out of my life".  Anyways, dunno what the whole purpose of this last part was, just to vent I guess…but anyways..leave notes!
Oh by the way the reason for the title is my horoscope from our local newspaper I’ve had 5 stars all week lol