What happens when it’s too late?

The worst part about this whole thing with my sister is I know she’s got problems. Problems far beyond needing to be diciplined or anything. For the past little while she’s been a “cutter”. I mean I knew it…but I never saw it…it’d just been frorm what I heard from my mom. My mom told me a while back that my sister went to her and handed her the razor and told her to take it and hide it because she was afraid she was going to hurt herself…(cry for help right there)…was aynthing done about it…NO…my mom took the razor and put it in the drawer…it was gone the next day. Did my mom do anythign about the missing razor NO! Grrr it makes me so mad now that I think about it. What brought this all up was I saw my sisters arms for the first time. She looks like a friggen zebra. They looked like they were pretty old…more like scars…but when I mentioned it to my mom seh said her legs were just as bad. I don’t know if they are old or new…or what…but it’s not good. Has my mom done anything about it…NO! The only thing she has done is critisize my sister for it. I mean this is not just something my sister does for fun…I’ve researched this a little bit..in fact I’ve decided that if allowed I’m going to use it for my research paper. Anyways..it’s something that shouldn’t be ignored…as far as I’m concerned.
My sister claims she has stopped..but I read somewhere that it’s an addiction…it’s like drugs or alcohol..they turn to it for emotional support and sometimes there’s no stopping it. It gets worse…
My dad has completely turned his back on my sister. I mean I can’t say I blame him for being mad..but it’s not worth disowning your own child over…he acts as if he doesn’t care at all. Some of the things he’s said to my mom about if anything happened to her he wouldn’t care….is that something you should say about your own child…even if you are pissed off! What if something really did happen…what if he NEVER had the chance to take that back…it really makes me sick to think about it..I know I could never say something like that about my child…I can’t even say that about anyone..I’ve never said that to a parent, about a parent..sibling…it’s sick!
My dad is like brainwashing my mom or something. Lastnight talking to her she seemd a little worried about my sister. She was worried about her not being able to eat…she was crying saying that she couldn’t let her own child go hungry. Today she’s totally different about it…she almost has the same attitude as my dad. I mean…they’re both just turning their backs on her like it’s the only way they know how to handle it. Like it’s all my sisters fault and she is just the worst person in the world.
I mean I know my sister is a raunch..but it’s not because she’s making the choice…she seriously has some psychological problems and they are not willing to help her…or help her get help. They find it easier to turn their back and run…well what are they going to do when it’s too late.
I mean in a week my sister will have NO where to live. She quit her job today because she had no way to get there. She was complaining because she’s hungry..has no money or food. I told her I was willing to fix her dinner..but she had no car to get over here.
I mean I know she has said for the last little while that the minute she turned 16 she was going to move out and if no one let her she would be emancipated…which I have to add that I checked the emancipation laws in Idaho and there is none..my mom called a lawyer and it’s 18 before she can legally do anything. She’s stubborn..and she causes problems..but she’s been a middle child and I think she needs the attention. I don’t think she cuts for attention..that is her way of dealing with her emotions…
I could go on forever…but I need a break!

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April 22, 2004

I was a cutter when we were in school. I was just mild though. It isn’t something you do for attention USUALLY. I didn’t want anyone to know. My step-dad found out and made me promise not to do it again. I only did it a few times after that. Mabye it was just because I knew someone cared. I don’t know. Then my mom found out and made me see a councelor for a while. Your right, She needs help.

April 23, 2004

hey chel I know alot of cutter especially over here but even back home, maybe you could talk to her and get her to go to the school councilor at least. I know you two well and she has always looked up too u so just try to talk to her and ask her what it does for her, and try to find something else to do that for her. find a differ. escape. my friend goes to the gym for example when things get to

ruff she just goes to the gym until things dont seem so bad and she can deal with it. hope all goes well good luck luv krys