Baby Talk

Well here it is just after 8 and I’m bored as hell. I’m watching 10 Things I Hate About You on tv. I actually really like this movie. Anyways, I forgot to mention something in my last entry. I’ve been trying to work out a quite a bit lately because I’ve got to make a huge decision come the end of May. That is when I will finish my last pack of birth control pills and I have to decide if I want to go back to the dr and get more or not. The plan a few months ago was to not go back and begin trying for a baby. Not only that, but I think it will improve our sex life. Sorry if this is a little too much info, but I honestly can’t say we have that great of a sex life, I’m just never in the mood. I’ve heard from a lot of people that it’s common for birth control to have that affect. I don’t know though. I guess I could just go off and see what happens. If I end up pregnant then great, if not…then great. I mean we both really really want a baby and I’ve always wanted to be a younger mom so I can keep up with my kids. I’ve always thought that when I start having kids I want them to be close in age, but I look at me and my sisters, and there are a lot of things I like about us being about 4 years apart…but then again I wonder if we’d be even closer if we were closer in age…I’m mainly talking about me and my 15 year old sister. Me and my 9 year old sister get a long great! I don’t know. That’s a long ways away. Does anyone know about how long it takes for birth control to be completely out of your system. I’ve heard a few months…I guess it kind of depends on how long you’ve been on it too. By the time I go off I’ll have been on it a little over a year. I think about it and I get really really excited. But a little scared too. I mean it’s just scary..thinking about me being a mom. I just wonder if I’ll be able to handle it. I mean I look at my life right now and it’s like…I think it’s really really busy….it’s bound to get ten times busier when we bring a little one into it. Financially, we’d be great…we’d probably have to make some changes. Mainly in our vehicles…but nothing major. I jsut don’t know how it would work out with school. Work wise I’d like to just stay home and babysit a few kids. But then what about school. There’s always time to figure it out, but it’s just stuff I’ve been thinking about.
Hmmm….life’s a crazy thing!