Anxiety…Maybe?

Well, I still don’t know exactly what’s wrong with me, but I might have an idea. I don’t think my allergies have anything to do with it. I think I’m just going to be living on Benydryl the rest of my life. They actually haven’t been too bad lately. Anyways, lastnight after I wrote that last entry I went and took a really hot bath and just relaxed. I felt SOOOO much better after that. Then Matt got home and I just let it all out. Didn’t cry like usual, but I just let him know that I think I’m under way too much stress again. He asked me why and I just started naming off stuff. I told him that I wish I could go back to how it was my first sememster of school. It was kinda how it is now, but I had a better job and I wasn’t working quite as much…well probably about the same. My job wasn’t near as stressful then…there was a lot less to worry about then. I know for one thing that I’m going to have to start staying off here for a while. Just until I get all caught up in school and then I won’t be on here as much so I can stay caught up. I have a friggen paper due and and I haven’t started on it. I have a little break between my classes so I’m going to work on it then. I feel like total shit. I might not even go to school today. I should just stay home and get caught up.
Anyways, what I’ve narrowed it down to is anxiety. I’ve looked at the symptoms and they all make sense….I just don’t know what to do about it. I’m fine when I’m with someone, but when I’m by myself I just sit here and think about all the things I need to get done. I need to be doing this..I should do this…blah blah blah.
Anyways..better go…probably be back soon…probably only go to my first class and then come home…I just blah…don’t feel good.