New Year? I hope so…

I have not written in a long time.
I have been struggling with my ever present depression and feelings of guilt.
  I wish I knew why I have such trouble being content.  People ask me; How are you, and rather than bore them with yet another rendition of all my issues, I lie and say "I’m fine." I wish that were true.
 It seems as if I am right back in the same situation I left. I am working and commuting to a job that I have come to dread. I do not see *E* except for an hour or so in the evenings when I get home from work and maybe an hour in the morning when I take her to school. Plus the fact that I am doing a 88 mile round trip commute to a job that does not even pay 13 dollars an hour.
Yes, I now have health insurance, etc. but I am struggling so hard just to pay bills and buy food. *E* needs clothes that I cannot afford to buy her, I can’t see any way to help her pay for college, etc.

I feel like I am failing her.

I am trying to keep the faith that God has me here for a reason but it is getting harder and harder to understand why.
*K* calls me on average of once every couple of weeks to ask me to take her back. She keeps saying that she wishes she had decided differently. I keep telling her that I want to see her go to the Mission to get help for herself.
She is living back at the old apartments that we moved out of when we moved next door to her mother back in 2007. She is still with *G* and as she states, "We fight all the time."
No surprise there, we all tried to warn her.
Her sister told me that *K* is "Hitting bottom fast." and that she hates calling *K* because *G* is always eavesdropping and yelling at *K* for what she says. Super insecurity and control issues there.

God, please show me the path you want me to walk.