See last entry.

 It’s time for shit to hit the fan. 

It’s time to fuck them up.

Cold blood runs through my veins.

Crawls maybe.

Sludges…through my veins.

Like mud.

The mud that bad men are buried in.

Good men can be buried here too. 

I don’t judge.

People will die.

A lot of them.

I will watch.

Sludge after sludge of cold blood mud pumps through my brick of a heart. 

And I will watch.

I don’t laugh.

or feel bad.

I don’t feel great either…but I kind of like seeing this.

 

You

and you

and her

and him

and then her

…and then the young ones.

 

Racial slurs

Ethnic backgrounds

Schooling

Exotic experiences

War trauma

…I don’t  care

 

sludge after sludge of my beating mud heart.

I watch you all die.

I can’t save the people I care about

So WHY THE FUCK WOULD I CARE ABOUT YOU?

Give me a break.

If this was the old west…I would murder all of you in your sleep because I know I can run faster than you.

I can hide better than you.

This science bullshit…

sleep safe because this science keeps you secure.

I can’t outrun this bullshit.

this For-EN-ZICKS 

I can’t.

But if I could.

Sludge…sludge…sludge…goes my mud heart. 

The shit I would bury you all in.

In my core is the soul of a murderer.

In my brain is someone too smart to go out that easily. 

Lucky for me…

All this shit is ending soon.

Then.

Then I will eat you all.

Your flesh.

Your families flesh.

The flesh of your best friends.

…some of you I will eat while you are still alive.

Burn your arm over a hot stove.

Make you watch as I devour the flesh…those fucking nerve endings that have already been killed by heat. It’s not about physical pain at this point. I just want to watch you watching me eat you. 

Just know. 

All of you.

If I could…I would kill you all. 

But I won’t. 

It’s against the rules. 

But if any of you see me walking down the street…just know that "The rules" are the fine line that is keeping me from your throats. 

 

Sleep well.