The past month has been hard.

I didn’t have a job for a while there.

Sooooo many fucking parking tickets.
SLC parking authority are a bunch of cock suckers.

Trying to get both of our cars registered is not easy when you get a god damn parking ticket every other day for expired tags.

…the reason they are not registered is because we need to get a few things fixed…which we could do if we weren’t getting three $30 parking tickets a week…each.

 

This last month has been a really busy one, just trying to get shit together with school, looking for a new job, getting one and training, trying to move all of my stuff into Rachaels place…it has been kind of shitty because I really only get to see Rachael at band practice. It’s really weird. We live together but it seems like we never see eachother.

 

Last night we just laid in bed and watched tv and goofed around…it was pretty much needed. It felt great. I didn’t pay attention to my phone, we put Echo to bed…we got to just hang out for the first time in a long time.

Seriously, it was great.

 

She has to work all day today, Echo is with our friend Sarah, and I have to go to work tonight. There is a pretty big fight tonight and the bar is going to be packed so I won’t be getting home until about three in the morning. I’m really glad we at least got a solid chunk of time last night.

 

The thing that I find most interesting though, is that even though shit is so hard right now. Money is tight, and I’m adjusting to being in some form of a father like roll…not to mention balancing work, school, and the band…it really is kind of hard right now.

But honestly, I wouldn’t want to be doing this with anyone else.

 

We have been serious now for four months, and she gets more beautiful every day.

It’s so different, and so amazing, to be involved with someone who is my friend.

I mean…she is my lover

But she is genuinely my friend too.

It’s really nice.

 

Even during the hardest moments…it’s really nice.

 

I am so glad that I am moving forward.

My past makes me kind of sick when I think about it sometimes.

I hope to be moving and growing more in life.

I know I will.

But for right now

at this very second

I’m glad I’m here because this is the farthest I have ever been.