Prenez-moi comme je suis, prennent ma vie
I suppose I am going to have to compile a list of songs I can no longer allow in to my "party shuffle" on itunes. I say this because "Everything I do" by Bryan Adams just came on, and I realized that I really can’t listen to it anymore.
So, here is the list I can think of at the moment:
Everything I Do: Bryan Adams
Maybe I’m Amazed: Paul McCartney
Always: Bon Jovi
Love of a Lifetime: Firehouse (I know, I know)
The all-time number one song I will never listen to again is:
Smoke and Ashes: Tracy Chapman
I guess it would be difficult to explan exactly why, but there was a time I listened to that song on repeat for weeks. Even at work. On the bus. On my bike. All the time.
I could go on, but I’d rather not think about it. And the more I think about it, the worse I feel.
Grief is good, right? And i know this is for the best. For all intensive purposes, we have been done for a long time. I guess its just a lot of things that are getting to me. Five years for us was coming up this month. I am not in love with her anymore, and no matter how hard I try, there isnt anything I can do about it. But I know I’ll cry the day she leaves.
I hate having a heart sometimes.
i’ll give you a cardioectomy.
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I have a box of cd’s that i cannot bring myself to listen to anymore .. ioncluding the entire collection of waif cd’s that i used to treasure. Its like a musical wasteland of emotions. Ditto on the heart … i wonder if i could sell mine on ebay?
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Of course, you will. But know this: In a very short time, which may not seem short while it is taking place, this just will not matter. You will move on to a new NOW and life will go on better than you now imagine. Be well, my friend.
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