Today I can’t win

Kids I tell ya some days you just can’t win.. today is one of those days. Every. Single. Thing I do is wrong. It’s hard not to take things personal when it certainly feels personal. I know kids take things out on their parents because we are their “safe” place… But sometimes being the safe place sucks because the parent has to shoulder everything and remember that your kid is throwing an attitude at you over something that happened that not only did you have nothing to do with but also no control over. Am I rambling? I don’t know what it was tonight… I suspect it may be madis new medicine but I don’t really know… What I do know is I stood in her doorway for the last 45 minuets to prevent her from leaving with God knows who to God knows where… But I’m sure it was nowhere stable or with people who would be able to help her if she would need help. She’s 18 I can’t do much if she is really hell bent on leaving but I can’t as her parent just let her go she’s not on a good spot medically and obviously not in a good spot mentally. Ugh. So as you see the suckage level tonight is high… I hate being a parent when suckage levels are running high. But here I am I’m not one to give up easily.. which also sucks at times but that’s a different topic for a different day. So for right now we are all going to sleep under the same roof and fingers crossed tomorrow is a better day.