07/28/2013

I need this week to just hurry up.  

Monday – New girl starts at work, meant to replace me. I have to train her.

Tuesday – Ernie is picked up by the animal transport company at 10am.  Off to work after that.

Wednesday – Research assignment due at midnight.  

Thursday – Thankfully, nothing except for work.

Friday – Drive M to Sydney to catch his 1:30pm flight.

Saturday – Sulk, then out to dinner for a friend’s birthday.

I am just so not ready for M and Ernie to go, but sweating over it is just awful.  

M and my sister got into a screaming match yesterday over bullshit.  I am hurt that they both acted like that, that I am now stuck in the middle, and that they ruined what had otherwise been a really nice night. 

The hot water wasn’t working here today, so it’s after 7pm and I still haven’t had my shower. It’s fucked.  Mum’s hot water comes from gas tanks (insane, but also very cheap) and the two tanks hooked up were empty.  A third tank was there, but I wasn’t sure how to connect it, and she was out all day.  Then she came back, we figured out how to do it, but didn’t have the right tool (usually the gas supplier hooks up the tanks for her).   Her neighbour came over, though and hooked it up.  By then it was after 6pm and we were starving, so I ran out to get some dinner, then of course we ate, now M is in the shower and I just feel so stinky and gross. 

I’m sad.  I finally got thin enough to fit into my favourite jeans and not look like a walrus, but they are just so worn out.  There are huge worn spots on the upper thighs, the waistband and belt loops are frayed, the knees white.  They’ve had a good run, though.  I bought them in Shanghai in 2006, and have worn them constantly. 

I had another really bad headache yesterday morning.  I know it’s just stress, deep down.  Even if outwardly I am only feeling sadness, I know I am worried about a lot of things somewhere in my brain.  

I just want to get out of here.  I am so jealous that M gets to go to the US first.