Edit….gettin better at this updating thing….

Anyway I am killing time until mom finally decides she wants to go to Walmart. I dont have a dime to spend but I said I’d go with her so she’d have company. If she waits too late I may change my mind. I havent been out of the house since I came home from seein my goddaughter last weekend, but I’m tired. Sad huh? I’ll go with her anyway. Tired or not. Why am I so tired? Oh I know. Because I stayed up talkin to Ben via mobile Yahoo until 5 in the morning. Like usual. lol. I’m a trooper I know. He wants company, I like talkin to him and its easy for me to stay up all night so it works. I never sleep. lol. I havent the slightest clue why he likes talkin to me so much. I’m not the most exciting person in the world but who am I to complain? lol.

Anyway, I’ve not mentioned him at all lately and I’m startin to see him as more of a friend nowdays. Kinda anyway. I’m proud of myself. lol. Furthermore, I’ve been tryin to place my focus on the things that matter. God, family, and few close, true friends that I do have. God bless you all. You have all been such a blessing to me and I appreciate it so so much. *hugs and kisses to all of you*

Lets see yesterday morning began with a text from my sista Debbie. Yay! She was thinkin of me. lol. I spent my entire day bored and lonely. Wandering aimlessly around the house with absolutely nothing entertaining to do. Sad sad sight. No one was home but me. Mom was at work. Dad and my bro Josh took off to entertain themselves. They have friends and a life. Blah. Anyway, when mom got home from work we played backgammon. I beat her. Yay! I never beat her. Me thinks she’s slacking on her game. lol. Danny texts my phone sayin that he’s at the movies but he’ll call me later on last night. I was like okay cool. Someone was thinkin of me. But to no surprise he didnt call. He never calls when he says he’s goin to. But once in a blue moon he surprises me with a call. *shrugs* Whatever’s whatever. Still love him to death though.

Debbie kept me company later on last night. She cheered me up quite a bit. We talk about her residents and scratchy art paper. lol. Which inspired me to go to DickBlick.com and sometime or other I’m gonna order some low-temp. clay. I love sculpting with clay so ummm yeah. Must get some. At 1:30 last night James calls me. I’ve not talked to him in about a month or so. He said he missed me and thought he’d check on me. Someone in the world loves me. <— thats cute. Anyway we talk until about 2:45 in the morning. He was all yawning and stuff and I told him to go to bed but he didnt want to let me go. lol. I made him go to bed and get some sleep. He was being more sweet than usual though (he’s always uber sweet to me as it is…. darn you Debbie for engraving that word in my vocabulary. lol) He was telling me how sweet I am and how much he enjoys talkin to me and that he can’t understand why I dont have a b/f. I was speechless but appreciative. About 15 mins later, Ben texts me and as I mentioned earlier we talked until about 5.

Well thats about it. Nothin too exciting huh? Anyway God bless you all and have a wonderful weekend. Leave me lots of love and such. Ya know how much I love it. lol. *again hugs and kisses to all* Love yas!

A Breath In The Fog – Spoken

God give me strength to make it through
Situations that sometimes get out of hand
I’ll keep my eyes on You
My dreams may not come true
I may fall on my face
Still my hope is in You
All I need is the strength to make it through
God strengthen these hands that always hurt You
This mind that wanders and always gets out hand
I’ll keep my eyes on You
Like a breath in the fog my memories have disappeared