Less Wrathful

I’m less wrathful then I was yesterday, you’ll be glad to hear. It’s Friday and rainy but I actually got some decent sleep last night-William slept til 4.30am, refused to go back to sleep but my wonderful husband brought him downstairs to play with him so I went back to sleep til 7am! Bliss.

I’ve barely left the house since Monday because of William’s bad bug-poor sausage has been so congested with a hacking cough like he’s a 40-a-day B & H man-so by yesterday afternoon the walls were beginning to close in on me and I was getting irritable. We missed MAD music class yesterday, and today we missed our swimming class for the first time ever. Sniff. Thankfully William is well on the mend and I am going out today, over to Deirdre’s house-her baby James has the same bug so they can fill the room with germs and snot. Yuck.

I’m in full throttle setting up my childminding business now. I told my school yesterday that I wasn’t returning to teaching in September. The official reason I gave was that we’re going to try for another baby this year-which is completely true. I knew the head wouldn’t want me back if I was going to go off on maternity leave again next year. It wasn’t the easiest call to make-even though I suspect they knew already that I wasn’t returning. I actually started crying on the phone-I love teaching and miss it so much. But this is only temporary. The idea is to have another kiddie and then go back in 3 years or so, doing my childminding in the mean while.

I started to have doubts yesterday as to whether going to business with someone I hardly know is a good idea. Jen is lovely-I met her on my childminding course, and it just seemed like a good idea to do this with someone else. I’ve heard childminding can be quite isolating. Also I think it would be fun doing it with someone else. However there is a risk involved. I don’t know that much about her. I don’t know if we’ll work well together. Will it work out financially with two of us looking after the kids? And I reall want to do things my way and get on with planning and buying resources.

Instinct tells me it will be ok, and working together is a good idea. I just gotta have faith.

I’m going to save this entry before OD screws me over again. Happy Friday everyone!

love Cookie xxxxxxxxxxxxx