soon

i’ve lost my sense of self. my entire body feels alien and unfamiliar. i just can’t seem to clear my head. it’s completely throwing me off. i really need a chance to just be selfish and collect myself, but with few answers, my friends aren’t understanding my need for them to just be patient and i’ll come back. i’m honestly not trying to treat anyone badly. i’m just trying to figure some things out and that has meant closing myself off for a little bit. usually i’m really good at making everybody happy but lately i’ve really just needed to step back. i don’t have the energy to be my self right now. i’m so sorry.

i’m just not up to parr right now. i’m trying to get up to speed, but it’s going to take some time.

i know my lack of updating is a testament to how i’ve pulled back from my regular routine. once i’ve checked a few more difficult things off this list (like getting healthy), i think things will go back to normal.